a Munson story

Breathless

"Eddie, wait!" I screamed as loud as I could.
He stopped walking and turned around. "What do you want from me? First your making out with Billy, then you got bored and now you're running after me!?" He screamed angrily.
"It's not like that! I never made out with Billy. I just told him that my sister disappeared and he was only acting friendly that's all." I screamed back at him. Tears were running down my face.

I took the few more steps, so we were finally face to face. "LIAR!" He screamed, tears flooding his eyes. "Whatever we had and our friendship is over! Go back to Billy boy!" He screamed, with tears running down his face. "But Eddie...", I started saying but he was already gone.

No.

My stomach was hurting. My heart was tense. The second he turned around angrily and hurt, I felt...

empty.

That's all. Just emptiness. I couldn't move. My body started to shiver. "Nooo! Come back! Eddie, please come back!" I screamed out in the night. Tears covering my face. I sat down on the floor, pulled my legs close to my body and put my head between my legs.

My lungs were tied up. I couldn't breathe. Desperately, I struggled for breath.

"Rose? Rose! What happened?" Billy ran to me.
"I...can't...breathe..." I gasped. "Hey honey. Try to breathe calmly. Breathe in," I did as he told me. I breathed in. "Breathe out," he said, and so I did. I continued to breathe till it was better.

"Thank you Billy," I sniffed. "Wait, I'll drive you home," Billy said and helped me to stand up. He held my hand like it's nothing. We went to his car. Billy let me chose the speed, and as we arrived at the car he opened the door for me.

He drove me home. It was silent in the car. No music. No talking. I cried softly.

The car stopped and he went out of it. Billy walked to the passenger side and opened the door for me. He held out his hand to me and I grasped it gratefully. He helped me to the door and rang the bell. I think if he wouldn't hold me, my legs would sink in, and I wouldn't be able to get up so fast.

The door opened. "Rose! What happened, sweetie?" Karen said worried. I couldn't answer. One word and I would burst out into tears again. Billy understood and answered for me. "Mrs Wheeler, we were eating in a restaurant and then Munson understood some things wrong..."

"Oh god, dear! Come here Rose," she said and opened her arms. I hugged her. "Is everything fine?" Nancy and Mike shouted from the lunch table.

No one answered. Nancy went to the door and saw me in Karen's arms and Billy in front of us. "Nancy? Help her to her room please," Karen said to Nancy. She nod grabbed my hand and let me to my room.

We sat down on my bed. Nancy said some things I couldn't listen to. I was in a different world. I started crying again. Memories of Eddie and me rushed threw my head.

Nancy hugged me. Long. And then she left me alone with my feelings. But that was alright. I wanted to be alone right now.

After a couple of hours I cried myself to sleep.

I am in a girls body. I am dragged into a corridor from two strong man. We are all dressed in white. I scream loudly. I cry. My whole face is covered with tears. The grip of the men is hard. My wrists hurts. "Let me go!" I scream, but nothing happens. They are about to put me in a small room. They hurt me. On my left is a window. I look in it and see myself.
They hurt me again. I scream.

I woke up. I gasped. Full of sweat, I stood up. I looked at the clock. 04:00am. I put of my sweater and took on a shirt and comfy hot pants. I took my walkman. I went outside and put my headphones on.

I started to walk faster. The song Cold as ice started started to play. I was jogging down the avenue. It was still a bit dark but that doesn't matter. I was jogging as fast as I could. I nearly ran as I got to the bakery.

Luckily it opened five minutes ago. I really jogged one and a half hours? Out of breath, I went threw the door. "Good morning dear! Already awake so early? You already have holidays don't you?" A friendly woman asked and smiled. "Honestly I couldn't sleep and went jogging. And yes we already have holiday." I said but something was strange.

I felt strange.
There was no emotion. Nothing.

The woman recognized that something was wrong. "Are you all right dear?" She asked with a friendly smile. "No I don't think so. Anyway," I said ordered some bread and buns, paid and went back home. This time, I walked normally.
I arrived at home at 7:00am. I went straight to my room, picked out comfy clothes and went into the shower. I showered quickly and put on the clothes.

"Morning Rose! Are you feeling better?" She asked sympathetically. I shook my head. Without a word I went downstairs. I heard the door from the bathroom. I made breakfast and sat down on the couch. "Sweetie," a voice said from the kitchen. It was Karen. She came to me and sat down next to me. She grabbed my hands and looked at me sympathetically.

"Rough night?" She asked. I didn't answer. I looked at her. After a few seconds I said "Yes".
"Oh Rose, come here," she said and hugged me. I could feel her body heat and her love but it was like my body fought against those feelings. They can't get into my heart. I feel...
nothing.