MY DILEMMA IS YOU [ ENGLISH TRANSLATION ]

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" We have to move to Miami because your dad got a better job " she says.

In this moment I would just disappear forever.

It doesn't make any sense.

We are good as this.

We have a beautiful house, lots of friends, school sucks but people are wonderful, and dad and mum has much money.

" But we are good as this! " I say.

" I know honey, but we cannot refuse. John Dallas, trusts your dad and he wants him near because of business. But think about what you two could win: a bigger house, an European school that will give you a suitable education, new friends and lots of other things! Miami is simply wonderful " my mum says forcing herself to keep smiling.

" Who is John Dallas? " asks Kate

" A dear friend of the University, and the boss of your dad " my mum answers.

" This isn't the point! " I intervene " Mum, I'm not saying that Miami isn't beautiful, but all my friends are here! I don't want others "

" We have all friends here " beats again Kate.

" I know honey, but friends comes and go! I'm sure that you will make new friends "

" I cannot leave Cass and Trevor. You perfectly know that we are inseparable and that I really care about them " I say.

" There is internet. You can keep in touch with socials!"

It seems that she has a solution for every problem. But I perfectly know that it is difficult to keep in touch with people. I'm not saying that it is impossible. Just hard.

" It isn't as easy as you think. When do we leave? " I ask

" Tomorrow after school, me and your dad will come to pick you immediately after school, and from there, we will go to the airport " she says.

" WHAT? " I ask screaming.

" Love " says my mum but I stop her saying: " No mum. Leave me alone! "

I get up from the table and I go to my room.

I throw myself on the bed and I breath deeply to not let the tears start coming out from my eyes.

I'm not ready to leave all the people that I love and this city, that I loved and hated at the same time.

Cass and Trevor.

I know them since we were young, how will I'll leave them? How will I'll recreate a new life without them?

I leave my bed, and I stretch the hand to the night table to pick a little frame with a photo of us smiling. Cass gave it to me on my fifteenth birthday.

From that moment, I conserved this photo because it's full of memories.

Many memories.

Maybe too much.

Just thinking about my life without them, makes me cry.

Also, in this school, people are nice. I'm the typical sixteen years-old girl with many friends, that everyone invites to parties.

I cannot say goodbye to this all for a stupid job.

I put the photo on the night table and I pick the phone to call Cass.

She has to know it.

" Cris " she says when she answer. " I knew that you would call me! I always tell you that math is difficult and that you should study it every day "

" Cass, I didn't call you for this... " I say crying.

" What happened? " She asks worried

" Tomorrow I'll leave this city. We have to move " I say drying the tears that doesn't stop running down.

" WHAT???!! " Cass screams in the phone " tell me that it is a joke. Please. Tell me that it was just another of you jokes. "

I belt up.

" No Cris. Why? Let's meet at the same place. You know that I hate talking about these things at the phone. I call Trevor " she says

" Yeah, okay " I say hooking up.

I get out from the bed and I go near the mirror to fix rapidly the make-up.

Then, I take my phone and I go out from the house.

When I arrive at the bottom of the stairs and I take the door handle, someone's voice stops me.

" Cris " resound my mum's voice in the hallway. " Where are you going? "

I take a deep breathe to try to keep calm and to impede the tears to come out again.

" Saying goodbye to the people that I love " I say watching in my mum's eyes.

" Love, you perfectly know why we are leaving " she says with sad tone.

" Yes. For a fucking job. We are good as this, we don't need it " I say

" Don't talk to me as this. And you have to know that, when you'll reteurn home, you'll have to prepare the suitcases to put them in the car, so we won't waste time tomorrow "

I immediately turn and I go out beating the door to make her understand that I don't like this choice at all.

I walk with rapid steps to arrive as soon as possible to our meeting place, that is the park in front of Cass's house.

I receive a message, and while I pick the phone, I fall on a boy.

" Sorry " I say

He watchs me with disgust and then he goes away.

When I arrive at the enter of the park, I immediately see my two best friends sit on our bench.

I enter and I immediately reach them.

When they see me, they rapidly make a beeline to me and they hug me.

In this moment I start crying.

I feel Trevor's hand on my hair that caress me to calm me, but his attempt fail.