𝐒𝐮𝐟𝐟𝐨𝐜𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 | 𝐄𝐯𝐚𝐧 𝐏𝐞𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬

Chapter eleven

"Please open the damn door" Evan pleaded with his fists bashing harshly against the door.

Flinching I curled up on the floor, tucking my legs into my chest and sobbing. I wasn't just crying because of the rejection; but the way Evan was trying to get through to me was terrifying me.

"P-please Evan go away" I croaked, pulling my hair to try and block out the noise around me.

"No, open this door Willa. I'm sorry"

Memories rushed through my head from when Alex used to try and break down doors I locked myself in; he was incredibly violent. Even if he wasn't able to break through; as soon as I opened the door I would be met with his fist.

Shaking uncontrollably I began to rock back and forth, the thoughts of being beaten clouding my head in which I couldn't think of anything else. I just felt like I needed to protect myself.

"Willa, I care for you. I do. I just can't do relationships, I'm sorry"

Though his words did nothing for me; Alex was still evident in my head and he wouldn't go no matter what I did. No matter if I focused on Evan, Alex was still lingering there and toying with my emotions.

"Evan- I am scared" I whimpered "no matter what I do- Alex never leaves me"

Suddenly a loud crash was heard which was the bathroom door coming off it's hinges, Evan rushed in and scooped me up in his arms and placing me on the bed. "Willa, what do you mean?"

Still crying uncontrollably I shook my head, pushing Evan away from me in a protective mechanism. "He- he used to hurt me so badly Evan" my fingers brushed my cheek where he used to punch me regularly.

Evan's eyes teared up, his hand now replacing mine as he stroked my cheek. "I would never hurt you"

"Please stop Evan" I cried further, my tears dampening my shirt and neck. "I am broken, he has broken me"

Evan's hand removed itself from my cheek and in replacement he placed his soft lips against it, the feeling sending shivers down my spine and slightly calming me down. "I would never hurt you"

"And he will never hurt you again. Not on this cheek, not anywhere on your body"

Evan then wiped away my tears with his thumbs "you're too beautiful to cry, come on Willa. Try come back to me"

The darkness in my head began to slowly fade away- Alex's cruel words and actions now floating to the back of my head; my thoughts now focusing on the good memories with Evan and my friends. 

"There we go" Evan whispered, pulling me into his chest and rocking me. "You're so strong Willa, I'm so proud of you"

Choking back tears I stared adoringly towards Evan, he looked so afraid and scared which made my heart hurt. "I-I'm not good for you"

Evan frowned whilst shaking his head "no Willa, that's the thing. You're perfect for me. That's the cruel thing about all of this"

"Look at you Evan, you just broke down the door- you look so upset. That's all because of me" I dejected shoving him away from me.

Pulling up my sleeves I pointed to faded scars across my wrists "look Evan, look what I used to do to myself" I shook my head with disgust, tears pooling effortlessly from my eyes. "I wanted to die, why would you want to be around someone like me?"

Evan choked back saliva and a stray tear rolled from his eyes, he grabbed my wrist and kissed it "I wish I was there for you, I would never want you to harm yourself Willa. But we are all broken souls trying to make our way in this life. You ended up fighting; I'm ever so proud of you"

His words made my heart thunder; the feelings of love that I hadn't felt in so long took hostage of my body and without a second thought I pulled Evan close to me, toppling over him so I was now cuddling into his firm chest.

"T-thank you"

Evan smiled weakly, stroking my hair behind my ear and holding me close to him. "You don't need to thank me, I made you get this way. I should of never banged on the door. I'm so sorry"

I wrapped myself around him tighter if that was humanly possible "Evan, nobody has ever said those words to me before. I've never felt so whole in my life. Whether or not we are just friends; you'll always be buried into my heart"

**

We were back in the truck with only three hours left of the trip, Evan paid the lady at reception some money for the door and apologised profusely but the lady was absolutely fuming; told us that we were never allowed back again.

The events from earlier were a mix of embarrassment and also.. love. Not so much love in a romantic way; but genuine love for a human being that had so much care towards me. For that I'll always be appreciative.

"We should get to the lake-house before five" Evan stated whilst flicking his eyes between me and the road, giving me smiles along the way.

Blushing at the way he looked at me I directed my attention to the window; seeing how the mountains of terrain laid around us beautifully. It was crazy how different everywhere looked even though we only travelled four hours.

"That's good, I can't wait to see how beautiful it is"

"Are you referring to yourself? Because I've looked at you for a very long time now- you take my breath away" Evan said with flushed cheeks.

Nibbling on my lower lip I laughed lightly "that is so cheesy Evan"

"Is that a bad thing?"

I shook my head "no- not bad. It's cute"

Evan relaxed back into his seat, both of us now sitting in peaceful silence.