Hope for tomorrow

Chapter 1: Things Happen

*Flashback*

As glass shatters on the floor, I stare at it contemplating grabbing a piece and just ending everything. I push my thoughts away and just continue breaking things. Anything that reminds me of the pain. My bookshelf is on the floor and books are everywhere. My clothes are thrown across the room. My mirror has distorted my body so much that I shattered it. Who am I? Why am I like this? Why does everything go wrong for me? Someone please help. The thoughts don't stop. I'm exhausted.

"True! Hello! True. Are you there?" Hope says through the phone.

"Yeah, I'm here." I tell her even though I know that I missed that entire conversation.

"Are you ready for college to start?" Hope asks even though she already knows the answer.

"Yeah, I guess," I say.

Trues Pov:

This is my first year of college. I'm freaked out and already stressed and I haven't even received my first assignment. I have high hopes for this year but then again I've already had 4 episodes and I can feel one coming.

Lately, I have been feeling like a failure. I see myself as a failure and so do my parents. I've never had a good relationship with them and I know that they are glad I am moving from Virginia all the way to Los Angeles to attend UCLA. Move out day is coming soon though and I won't lie, I'm terrified. I already met my roommate and she is nice. Her name is Tara and she knows about all of my issues already. I don't plan on becoming friends with her but if it happens then oh well.

I don't want to leave Hope though. I've known her since I was about 4 years old and we've had a really strong bond with each other since. She's my all time best friend. It sucks that she didn't get into UCLA, it was her dream school, but I know she'll be okay. Unlike me, Hope is fun, she has a lot of friends already at her college and has already gone to 2 parties. She's going to do amazing things one day. Knowing her, she'll become the next president and I'll just be her emo secretary. We stick together through everything. Now that we're separating, I can't help but to think that we'll split apart and lose our bond.

*Time skip: Move out day*

Today's the day. I just finished packing and I'm getting ready to leave. Before I go though I need to finish packing and make sure that I have everything. After all, once I get out of this hellhole, I will never be back.

"True!!" My mom calls

"Yeah mom?"

"Did you make sure to give your brother gas money?"

"Yeah mom."

"Okay good, I couldn't have my baby getting stranded. Anyways you better get going if you want to make it to Ohio in time."

"You mean California?"

"Yeah sure whatever"

True's POV:

I am on the verge of an extreme breakdown. She will be the reason why I break. I have always been in charge of taking care of my brother. I am always the one giving him money. My money that I earned. I worked 2 jobs all while completing my senior year of highschool, while he just got to stay home and play video games. Now that I'm leaving he'll just have to figure it out. I love my brother but he is almost 20 years old with no job and he doesn't even attend college. I can't wait to find out what he ends up doing to survive. I bet my parents will just spoil him though and give him whatever he wants. Now that I'm gone it'll probably happen.

*time skip: California*

(Still in True's POV)

Now that I have arrived at UCLA, I feel unstoppable. I conquered all odds and I made it to college. I'm still having bad thoughts though and I want them to stop. Classes don't start for a week so I can just get to know Cali until then but I don't think that will happen. On the way here, I felt an episode coming and I knew exactly what was going to happen. Luckily for me I share an apartment with Tara and have my own room so I can freely break down as needed.