Flashbacks (ZARRY AU)

PART 22

Zayn is actually having a self crisis that he needed to detach himself from Harry. He feels like he needed to be Harry's hero and because of what happened back in high school.

But the things he doesn't get is that Harry doesn't need him to be his hero because one, times have changed, they've grown and mature and two, Harry wants Zayn and not "the hero Zayn" he wants Zayn the artist whose smile lights up Harry's world and whose every touch warms his heart. But of course, Zayn doesn't understand that.

Zayn started moping around his apartment just near his dad's pizza house in Williamsburg. He wanted to get away for a while and leaving his business to Louis won't hurt.

His dad called but he ignored it and Harry even called but he ignores it too. He can't really talk to him at the moment.

Zayn lives in a two bedroom, 1 bath and a kitchen place apartment. Zayn really isn't in to fancy apartments since he spends most of his time from his gallery and sometimes on The pizza house. He only gets home, shower and sleep and then leave the next day to work. Its a routine actually. So now that he's been moping for days, this was the time only Zayn notices his apartment. The color of the walls are dull, the appliances aren't updated to their latest models and some of the things inside his apartment aren't really maintained. Zayn could've painted the walls, change his appliances and arranged his furniture. He could actually do that now, but he's moping and doesn't have the energy to do so.

Zayn was on his bed, covering himself with his duvet trying to get some sleep. He's been moping all right, but can't sleep. Zayn doesn't even know how many times he'd sighed that day. He was having all these thoughts about Harry when he heard a knock on his door.

Zayn perked his head from the duvet as he looked at his bedroom door. Zayn waited for another sound and when it did, he slowly got up from his bed, put the duvet on his shoulders, draping the duvet on the floor and started to walk out of his room.

He slowly walk towards the main door as he listens when he heard another knock. Zayn looked through the fisheye and gasp when his eyes saw Harry standing on his doorway holding a big matte black colored box. Zayn's heart started palpitating. He never told Harry his address. Oh Damn Louis.

"Zayn? Babe?" Zayn's skin prickled hearing Harry's slow speech pattern and gosh he missed his voice and he even called him 'Babe'

"Louis told you're here and well, I wanted to talk to you" Harry added as Zayn didn't answer. He lean his forehead on the door "Come on Zee, don't be like this...You've been detaching yourself from me...we could talk about what's bothering you" Zayn closes his eyes and sighed "Harreh....I don't deserve you. Just....go" Zayn responded as he turned around and leaned his back on the door, holding the duvet tight on his shoulders "Don't say that! You don't get to decide that!" Harry answered raising his voice "Its Liam is it? Its about him? His words?" Once Harry said this, Zayn's ears perked and his entire body shake "Liam's nothing to us Zayn! Whatever words he said to you....it means nothing! Don't be a coward!" Harry's voice really shouting now, he even slam his palm on the door "Don't be like the Zayn back at high school, don't be a coward!" Harry lets go of the box and he again slammed both his palms on the door giving a loud thud. Harry leaned his forehead on the door

"You really want to know how my life was when you abandoned me? Fine! I will tell you!" Harry took a deep breath before starting to talk "I've been miserable...okay?! You were the only person who cares for me back then....you were the only person who encouraged me for being who I am....you were the person who matters to me most back then!" Harry's eyes started to give out tears as Zayn is trying his best not to cry hearing Harry's voice cracking from the other side of the door "And guess what, I almost fell for you back then, Zayn...." Harry's lips gave a small smile when he remembered the feeling of having a first crush "You're so beautiful and so kind to me that my heart just gave in....I tried stopping it....I know you're not into guys like me but ended up crushing you anyway" Harry closed his eyes as tears dropped.

He opened his eyes again "Maybe that's why I was so depressed when you abandoned me because of what I felt" Harry softly said as Zayn tears finally dropped his eyes. He held his duvet tighter as his heart started to ache "But look us now Zayn. We've finally been true to our feelings and finally together...." Harry's voice is more mellow and calm now "I even told myself not to let you in because of what happened back then but I took a leap and risk it. I've risk my heart for you..." Harry paused, he needed to calm himself because his tears are coming out of his eyes never ending. Zayn on the other side of the door is crying nonstop as well as he heard Harry's words.

"Zayn....I don't need you to be my hero" Harry finally said "I just want you to be with me and be on my side all through out" Harry added with a sniff "Zayn, I love you" Zayn's eyes widened hearing the three words "Please don't abandon me again" Harry softly said as his tears kept on falling and falling from his cheeks.

Zayn's entire being weakened as he cried some more. His shoulders shake, and his heart started to beat furiously on his chest "Harreh....please...." Zayn's voice cracking "Just.....go" and hearing Zayn's pleading voice, Harry's entire body frozen on the spot and he can feel his heart and his entire being shattered.

So whatever he'll say, whatever he'll do, Zayn won't change. Zayn will still be the coward little boy he was back then. Zayn will forever be the boy who's stuck in the past and will never grow. Harry can't believe it, after all those memories, those romantic moments, it all comes to an end.

Harry slowly stepped away from the door still crying before finally having the courage to walk out leaving the box in front of Zayn's door.

END OF PART 22

A/N: Oh my goddddd my heart! I don't want zarry to end like this but gosh my heart also ached while writing this part. Harry deserved better right? Like he deserves someone who'll stick to him til the end of the line. Do you think will have his self redemption?

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