Some time had passed since then, the clouds comes into the clear skies and it seemed that the weather might fall out this evening. But, I don't have any complaints since Christmas is also fast-pacing.
I was walking my way home in the sidewalk. I watch the ocean waves from the distance and a familiar figure was found. She was sitting on the sands alone, it took me about seconds to know who this person is.
"What are you doing here?" I approached her. I must admit that walking in sands felt a lot more heavier.
The girl was, without a mistake, Sana judging by her clumsy reaction. "Heh?!" She stood in an instant. "Y/N? Why are you here?"
"I'm on my way home... I slept in school last night.. not that there's much to do in school now," I reply lazily.
"Could you at least put some energy with your tone..?" Sana mumbles.
"The ocean is pretty here, right?" I moved my head to the sight. "I always stop by here and take some fresh air. This place is my healing sanctuary. People swims here in summer but it only ruins the ocean that way," I explain.
"That sounds condescending..." Sana sighs.
"The view here is prettier when it hits sunset."
"Mhm, it's morning and cloudy so it's not that much anymore... however, I feel at ease here," Sana agrees, her head bowed down and look at her feet.
"By the way Sana... this is not your way home, right?" I remind and she waver her eyes.
"Uhh... I-I just heard that the ocean here is great so here I am!" Sana was so easy to read, she was obviously lying.
"There's no point in hiding. Chaeyoung told me she brings you home and you slept in my room," I tell her, standing next to her while I keep my eyes forward to the ocean.
"Y-you know?!"
"She texted me... She said she was thankful I was not home otherwise there'd be no room for you to sleep," I tell nonchalantly.
"S-sorry about that. You see, yesterday... we run into each other last night with your Mom and they invited me to a dinner. I did refuse it at first but they insisted, my parents are okay with it though since they weren't going to be home for the night.. and I felt kind of lonely at home alone. So, Iwas nervous I thought you'd come home but then I know you're busy with Committee and other stuffs," She tells.
"I apologize.. my family has been causing you trouble, " I bow a little.
"It was fun though,"
"Was my Mom worried about me?"
"She was. You should go to her now,"
"Oh right... that's the reason why I'm here," I turned around to set my foot off the sands.
"Y/N...!" Sana calls me and I turn around.
"Yes?"
"Are... are you coming back to school?" Sana asks, it sounded like she went through much courage to say that out loud. I saw her clench her hands in her chests.
"Of course,"
She breaks into a smile and, "I'll wait for you. Let's go together,"
Her smile was bright and attractive. She was already as pretty as the ocean view. I blushed a little, "Wanna come over again, then...?"
"Huh?" Sana gasps.
"Y'know... back to my house. I can't have you wait here for too long. You can wait in my house if you like," I'm so embarrassed, why am I sayin this?! What happened to my ego?
Sana freezes, she looked down to hide her shy face and then gaze back to me. "I can't say no to that, can I?" She giggles.
"Well that's up to you," I avert my small eyes to the side.
Sana happily jumps and walk out of the shore. She was already ahead and I followed in delay.
"Walking can be a good exercise, huh?" Sana chuckles.
There's happiness in walking and because it helps you think that most people... live in their minds.
Walking with your head down will make you realize that you are part in reality, which you intend to run away from it.
If you look at your feet, that's you moving forward to the next journey and experience more in this world.
Hiding won't move you anywhere...
Even I am alone, with no friends... I still move forward by myself because I keep walking in my own pace. It clears your head and gave you thoughts. As I've always loved to do.
No rush, no speed, jogging, and no clattering footsteps. There will always be something you are bound to encounter with the steps you had taken..
For instance, this girl in front of me. My first interaction with her was in our first year days. We were partnered up for history report and she was slowing me down there, to be honest.
We don't talk a lot... but we're classmates since then.
Who would've thought she and I would've gotten this close?
It really has to be the club that puts us more together.
I watch her carefully to make sure she won't take a clumsy step.
"How's Mina?" She asks. Well, she's aware we are in the same team in Committee staffs.
I sigh, "Good, I guess."
"That sounds less convincing. You two always bicker a lot," She laughs. Damn, how does she knows that? I guess it happens all the time.
"She's working really hard,"
"What about.. Momo? Have you seen her in school recently?" She quietly asked. It was so difficult to answer that, given what happened last night between us.
"...Yeah," Seeing my face, Sana knew what was happening to the confession. The thought of it made her heart break apart and she whispers lowly.
"Poor Momoring..."
But even if this is consider a chance
I don't think I'll tell Y/N how I'm feeling.
It's better this way.
I don't want anything to destroy just because of this person.
It's not like Y/N had any intention to date us after all... They don't see us like that.
I want things the way they are.
Even if this feelings gets stronger... there's no way I'll say it.
I wouldn't allow myself to date anyone right now...
In fact, I don't think I'm right for Y/N...
