Unspeakable Acts (bwwm)

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| Alyssa Mitchell |

I can't believe I kissed my best friends boyfriend. I'm a completely shitty person. Thank god today is Sunday, I had all day to figure out what I'm going to do at school tomorrow. All day Jasmine and jaxon called and texted me but I couldn't answer them! I can't face either of them.

I can't sit in their face and act like I ruined their relationship. That's crazy. I've had all day to process what happened at the homecoming party but I still have no idea, why or how. I knew I should've stayed home. This is all my fault.

I feel like such a horrible friend to them both. Jaxon probably hates me because I didn't tell him sooner, and jas will hate me when she finds out I kissed her boyfriend. Basically boyfriend...saying that they're only in the talking stage doesn't make me feel any better about the situation.

I look down at my phone and I see multiple more texts from jax and multiple FaceTime calls from Jasmine. I let out a loud sigh as I go downstairs. I leave my phone in my room. I'll just ignore it.

I sit at the island watching my mom cook dinner, "hey honey. Everything okay? You've been cooped up in your room all day."

I scratch my head nervously, "mom. I think. I did something really bad."

She stops what she's doing and turns to face me, she stares at me for a second before glaring at me to continue speaking.

"I kissed jaxon."

Her eyes widen, and a small grin creeps onto her face. I glare shaking my head, "no. He's talking to Jasmine."

"What happened?"

"I was at the after party, and I may have had more than I should've to drink...and we kissed. And I also told him that I think Jasmine isn't committed to him...that she's still hung up on Cameron. And I feel like such a bad person ma."

She comes around to me and she embraces me tightly, "you are not a bad person hunny bunny."

I look up at her as I relax into her hug, "I feel like it. I mean I may have ruined both my friendships because I made the stupid decision to drink."

She runs her hand down my hair, "things happen. You're going to have to talk to them eventually though."

I look down to see my moms phone ringing, and sure enough it's jas. I look at her with wide eyes, "tell her I'm not feeling well and I've been asleep all day."

I stand up and quickly make myself a dinner plate and I take it back up to my room, that way if jas looked on the cameras she would be convinced I am sick. As I head upstairs I hear my mom talking with her, "yeah I just gave her dinner, I'm not sure if she'll be at school tomorrow....Kay, love you. Bye."

After I finish my food I catch up on gossip girl and I scroll through tiktok. I make sure that my status is off so jasmine or jaxon doesn't see that I'm online.

I truly don't know what I'm going to say to her when I have to face her.

***

So...

I ended up going to school. I couldn't miss this week because we're practicing for exams. I still haven't returned jaxon or jasmines calls. I've just been trying to mentally prepare for when I see them.