MI AMORE || TAEGUKK || TAEKOOK

Saviour

~Hours had passed but Taehyung was still on the same position, quite silence was everywhere, except his mind. Because his mind was nothing but wreck as much as his heart.

Why his father hated him so much? If he hated him that much then why didn't he kill him when he was born? was he nobody to him?

Yeah he's actually nobody to him, if he would've someone to him then why would he abuse his childhood?

why he wouldn't let tae be happy? He hated his son, hated Taehyung but why? Taehyung didn't know, he tried to know, he just remembered since the day his mother died, his father changed into someone Taehyung didn't know at all.

He started hating his son since that time, that caused Taehyung to be mentally sick, he grew up with depression and anxiety by his side just Because of his own father. Those nightmares made his nights restless and then turned into sleeping disorder that he couldn't properly sleep without crying to himself in dark hours of night when others used to sleep peacefully.

If it wasn't because of his Friends tae would have killed himself way before but he always felt weak to do so.

How pathetic!

Taehyung's eyes were dry as tears had refused to come out of them anymore and he was only staring at the ceiling of the fucked up room where he was tied in. Inhaling and exhaling shakingly. He had come to senses just moments ago and didn't found himself any better.

So this was really going to be his fate. The fate that let him be nothing but a trash. Disgusting and sick excuse of being a human.

He was abnormally still at his place not moving at all as It pained to even move a bit.  He kept staring at ceiling thinking about his mistakes, how his stupid caring emotions toward his unworthy father always made him weak infront of world.

Can life get any harder than this?  He asked to himself

Why did he born like this? why couldn't he had normal life like others, he worked more than hard his whole life, when others used to play around in teenage he used to be busy making himself capable and worthy of his dreams even despite of his sufferings, only to make his life better yet he couldn't change his fate.

 He should've just gave up on thought that he could be happy in his life ever.

Eyes stung prickling with hurtful tears once again as he remembered what happened just hours ago, the feeling of disgust was eating him alive that he couldn't fight against the devil.

This life was just being too much burden to carry anymore.

helpless

Dirty

Disgusting

I want to die...

I just want to dieee...

Taehyung cried out to himself just near to his mental break down, apparently his body was life less and eyes were empty but his soul was  screaming to be freed from this life time torture and sufferings. Taehyung continued to cry, cry the to god he believed in--

If you love all of your kids then why I'm suffering like this God? Why is this happening to me?

I don't want to marry to him

I don't want to be a fucking slave

I'll rather die

His killing thoughts took a break when he remembered his hyungs. If they would be here they wouldn't have let his mental demons win.