After being let down by every man in her life, Chaeyoung has tapped out of the idea of love. Her soft personality caused people to treat her however they wanted. Park Chaeyoung abided by the rules, stayed out of the way, and prepared for her life ou...
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Dear Diary,
This is probably my fiftieth entry in the past few days. I use to update this once a week, but it's starting to feel like sad girl hours is an every day thing now. I haven't done much in the last few days other than sleep, cry, and write.
I should've seen it coming though. Nothing good last forever. The one feeling I can't shake away is embarrassment. I feel so fucking embarrassed. I really made myself believe that a guy like Chanyeol could leave a girl like Mina (who he described to me as an angel countless times) would end up liking someone like me. God, I'm so stupid.
I'm even more mad at myself for still missing him. Every text or call he sends me has become so hard to ignore, so I blocked him. All I want is to talk to him or be held by him. Last week keeps replaying in my mind and I still can't seem to wrap my head around it.
I'm so ready to feel like myself again.
-Sincerely, Chae.
Chaeyoung closed the book and poured herself a glass of water
Jennie walked back into the living room setting her glass down on the coffee table.
"What did Jongin want?" Chaeyoung said, taking a sip of her drink.
"He was just letting me know they won the game that's all."
Chaeyoung mind went to Chanyeol. She imagined he probably had the same rush of adrenaline and the sly smirk he always wore when they won. Chaeyoung also thought of Mina congratulating him on the field.
"Another win under their belt. Good for them." Chaeyoung said sarcastically.
Chaeyoung got up from her seat and walked to the sink to put her cup in it.
"Are you okay?" Jennie said. "Don't bullshit me either. I want you to be completely honest."
"I'm fine." Chaeyoung said. "Why wouldn't I be fine?"
"I'm your best friend Chaeyoung." Jennie said. "You can tell me what's going on."
"Nothing is wrong Jen. Why are you acting like a mom?"
"Chaeyoung, you've been in your room for the past few days. If you do go to class you barely make it on time. The last time we talked was when you asked me to get your car from Chanyeol's place and that was almost two weeks ago."
"Then tonight miraculously you text me asking if I want to dress up and take pictures with you." Jennie looked up at Chaeyoung to see her lost in her phone. "Now you're ignoring me."
"Is this picture cute? I just posted it on Instagram." Chaeyoung said ignoring Jennie and showing her a picture on her phone.
"Chaeyoung I will literally slap you."
"Okay," Chaeyoung pleaded before putting her phone down. "I'm fine, but I'm not one hundred percent I'll admit it."
