Please Love Me Again | Taejin ✓

10. A Night to Remember

Jin and Taehyung were lying their heads on the pillows side by side, facing each other. They stayed and rested this way for a few minutes - just silently staring at each other's eyes and smiling a bit.

Not one has yet uttered a word. Just their eyes were communicating, but their hands were caressing each other - Taehyung on Jin's face, while Jin's hand was on Taehyung's chest.

After a few more while, Jin decided to start talking, "This isn't your first time, is it?"

The smile on Taehyung's face slowly faded, so Jin quickly said, "I don't mean anything by that- I just wanted to confirm. I was vocal that this is my first so it's obvious that I didn't know what to do at some points earlier. I didn't want you to expect."

"Jin, I'd rather expect that you don't know much than be surprised that you are already so good and experienced at this. I was glad I led the way." Taehyung sighed, "Coz yes, you're right. This isn't my first anymore. So I'm really thankful that you're still untouched, at the same time, regretful that I didn't save my first for you..

See-- I lived in the US for fifteen years, Jin. Where sex is just like a normal thing already. It can even be expected at a first date nowadays- that's how liberated some people are in there. Not all, but some are-- and I've met quite a few of them.

I was trying to move on from you, finding someone for me. And so I did things. I'm really sorry, baby.. I didn't know. But thank you.. thank you for letting me be your first. And I can swear right now that you are already my last."

Jin flashed a lip-tight smile and just remained silent. He's afraid he'll get emotional over a thing that he can't bring back anymore. He knew it wasn't Taehyung's fault - it's been a big misunderstanding which was initially caused by him. So to hold grudge over this would seem immature of him.

Taehyung saw the change in Jin's look, so he sighed and spoke again, "If it makes you feel better, I'd like to let you know that I never told anyone these three words-- I love you. It's only for you, Jin. It's only you that I have loved like this."

Jin smiled slightly, then he placed a quick peck on Taehyung's lips, "I love you too. I don't doubt your love for me, Tae. I'm just sorry that I've wasted a lot of time and experiences with you."

"Don't be. Let's go past that now, hmm? And if that still doesn't make you feel better-- how about I tell you that this is my first time.. my first time to make love. I've had sex before with a few guys I dated. But this is the first time I made love with the man that I cherish, admire and love the most. This is the only night I have to remember for the rest of my life.."

Tears just began to flow down sideways from Jin's eyes to the pillow. But Taehyung wiped them with his thumb, "Please don't cry. I feel so happy right now, so I want you to feel the same." He said while caressing Jin's face and wiping his tears dry.

"I'm-- I'm really happy too, Tae. That's w-why I'm crying. Hearing you say again that you love me- it makes me so happy inside. I've waited so long for this."

Taehyung placed gentle kisses on Jin's eyes, which made the latter to shut them close- to make him stop crying.

"As for me, I thought this won't happen anymore. So I'm amazed we are together right now. Please stop crying.. I only want to see you smiling."

Jin took a deep breath as he opened his eyes, then he smiled slightly. "I would be smiling lots from now on."

"That's what I like.."

"Tae-- uhm, how about Park Jimin?!"

"Oh! Jimin-- yeah, I-- I almost forgot him." Taehyung sighed. "Jin, please believe me - I don't feel anything for Jimin. I haven't even kissed him on the lips, I swear. That proposal--"