Matryoshka Doll - NoRenMin ✔︎

Chapter 13

"Huang Renjun! Where were you?!" Jeno yelled the moment Renjun entered the room.

"Out? Walking around?"

"Why do you sound like that?! Why do you sound as if you don't care?!"

"Why do you sound like you DO care?! Huh?! Don’t worry about the stupid things I do. Just focus on yourself and Jaemin." 

Jeno paused. What? The hell was Renjun speaking about?

Well, yeah, he had figured he liked them both but he liked the tiny male first which was what he focused on more. Now Renjun saying it like that made it sound as if he were in a relationship with the other boy.

"Renjun, I need you to shut up and think about what you're saying," Jeno said calmly but thickly. "Do you even hear yourself?"

Renjun gulped. Well, at least he now knew he fucked up.

The air tensed, Jeno feeling upset not only from his sudden outburst with Renjun but also because right after he disappeared, Renjun returned with a weird attitude. He turned in an attempt to escape Jeno but before he could fully leave, he was held back by Jeno's voice.

"Wait. I have a proposal," Jeno interrupted his walk. "I see you still have a grudge against Jaemin but he's trying to change. So I’m proposing the idea that you join me on a day as we sit together and just talk."

"No."

"What?"

"NO! I DONT WANNA TALK TO HIM!" Renjun yelled, his emotions swirling in blinding colours as he stared into Jeno's eyes.

The room seemed to have a shift, everything mixing as one. Luckily, Donghyuck entered at that moment from lord knows where, seemingly calming the tension he failed to notice.

That was enough for them to break their eye contact and climb into their respective beds with a troubled conscience. Renjun was feeling distraught. He knew he had no reasons or rights to feel that way if Jaemin and Jeno so happened to be dating but he couldn’t help it. The man he liked and the man he had liked on day one but didn't like anymore, seemed to linger in his mind no matter what.

Both Renjun and Jeno didn't think they'd be able to sleep and if they did, possibly not well but only the night would tell.

._._.

The night passed, then the following day until the day turned to days and all that was left of their friendship was the awkward moments when they were alone in a room. Even Donghyuck didn't seem to notice their awkward actions, much too invested in whatever had him running off each day.

Kunhang, who everyone expected to get kicked out, had somehow convinced the directors to allow him to remain for entertaining purposes. Of course, he used that to take advantage of getting closer to Dejun and Yangyang and for the most part, it seemed to be working─ although there were severe hitches in the road.

Now, Renjun was struggling.

His heart longed for Jeno and the longer they stayed apart, the more he wanted to cry. But he was now suddenly always with Jaemin and he couldn't tell, was he jealous of Jaemin or was he jealous of Jeno? That was the real question now.

He kind of really wanted to be accompanied by both according to his insides but his stubborn mind said otherwise.

Feelings were such confusing things.

But Renjun, although accepting to basically anything, seemed to have a Matryoshka layer of his own and that meant that that layer was to break in order for him to finally stop having repulsion towards Jaemin.