Mind, Speed, Hate The Psycho

A TASTE

A/n just so you know mature content in this chapter so if you want you can skip this chapter to keep the sanity of your eyes and holy mind. Not a sex scene. I repeat not a sex scene but there's a lot of stuff kids should not actually read. For the sanity of your pure mind you can skip nothing that important is going to happen in this chapter. Wiz out

AVA'S POV

I can't sleep. I'm tossing about in this stupid bed that's really uncomfortable. It's been three weeks since we got that call. And,no I didn't make up with Nathan I didn't have the liver to. The moment I walked up to his door I just couldn't do it so I left to my room that day.

Since that night Nathan has been a little bit over protective about Sandra. I don't know why but he doesn't let her do anything herself he's always making sure she's either protected with something like a gun or he's by her side. I was more shocked to find out Nathan had an actual gun with him I was really terrified about that stuff.

I've tried calling my dad for a few days now but he doesn't pick or he's number is switched of I'm really scared for he's safety if you ask me but I don't really know how to open up about that because I get he's a business man and he has a lot to do but I can't help but feel he's avoiding me.

I don't want to believe that because I'm the only family he has left and he's all I've got if he doesn't want me I don't know what I'd do with myself if he didn't want me around so I just decided to stick with the positive side of things.

It's been three weeks. We've been going to school like regular teenagers for the weeks but it feels weird. We sit at our regular tables at the populars except Nathan he wasn't with us before all this but still I think he would be a great fit in that table.

Anyway apart from that Nathan has been distant from every body for a while. He doesn't talk to anyone as much as he used to. Doesn't make any sarcastic comment like before just locks himself up in his room. If Cassandra is keeping quiet or doesn't know about it means there's nothing wrong right and I'm probably overreacting, right? No I don't think so. Since she got in her new relationship she and Colton have been all lovey-dovey to the point it makes me sick. She got Colton in the same night I advised her and here I am still sulking over a guy that I can't get. I don't get Nathan at all ever since Cass got in her relationship I've tried everything. Wore the kind of clothes that brings all the attention in the room,flirted, infact every trick in the book known to mankind that a pretty girl like me can think of.

I mean. Am I not pretty enough.

Ever since I've tried to get him it's just opening up a bunch of insecurities about my self that I hate.

Can you imagine that the face I once called perfect, I'm checking if the freckles are showing too much and maybe that's why he doesn't look my way. Or whether my-used-to-be-perfect-ass is to small or whether my chest are to small to attract him. Or maybe he doesn't even see me as pretty I mean he has seen a lot of pretty girls before with much bigger asses than mine. God how did Cass score him?

Just thinking about all this makes it even more impossible to sleep tonight. I need a drink.

I went down and found out the T.V was on and surprise, surprise I found Nathan on a couch sitting in his full glory.

He had turned on the indoor waterfall where water falls from the ceiling to the small automatically formed indoor pool made in the smart house living small walk pathways and room to put the furnitures. This is so beautiful. I'm pretty sure Sandra doesn't know about this. This is really. . . I don't even know what to think. How much billions did these guys have?

"Are you gonna keep staring or are you going to do something other than stand there?" He's voice jolts me back to reality again.

I looked at him this time. He was shirtless. Those abs were in display for me to see. If there was a Greek god with abs that could make a girl die that was Nathan. If only I could just get a taste.