Mind, Speed, Hate The Psycho

EPILOGUE

7 YEARS LATER

AVA'S POV

"Ava Chrisland, I don't know how to say this and I don't have a speech because I couldn't really come up with one that would praise you enough for who you are to me. You are really the most blessed and beautiful thing that happened in my life. I don't know how to say that you are a perfect,strong and remarkable woman who has stood by me throughout out my life. Right from the moment I laid eyes on you I knew you were going to be someone special to me. You've been with me through thick and thin. You are beautiful, strong, trustworthy and everything I could ever want in my life. I don't really know anything else to say other than my life would be a wreck without you. So for the sake of my heart and my sanity, Ava Chrisland will you marry me and be mine forever? Would you marry me so that I would cherish and make more memories with you because without you there isn't a me. So will you marry me?" He said as he was on his knees staring at me with his beautiful green eyes full of love and sincerity. I looked at him as tears rolled down my eyes and I remember the first conversation that got us to this point.

"Happy graduation Nathan." I said as I sat down beside him in the beach looking at the ocean horizon.

"Happy graduation Aves." He said still staring at the ocean. "Why aren't you in the party?"

"I don't really feel like celebrating the past year is not something I feel like celebrating. I lost more than I could ever dream of. This doesn't feel like something worth celebrating." I said as I looked at him while he still gazed into the ocean.

"You might be right but I discovered that it's little things in life like this that makes life beautiful and sweet. Don't you agree?" He then looked at me.

"If that's so then why are you here instead of being with others enjoying the party?"

"Trying to get my head out of something's I guess?"

"It's Xavier isn't it?" The sigh was all I needed to confirm I was right.

"I know he hurt you but he's my brother and I still love him. I just want him to be alive and okay. Living the life he wanted."

"Love huh?" I looked back into his eyes that were staring at me. "Do you think you could ever love me?"

"What?" He's face scrunched up in confusion.

"Nothing. Forget it. Forget I said anything. It's just some stupid idea." I said turning my face in embarrassment towards the sea.

He'd reject me. Xavier knew this. Don't push your luck Ava.

"No I'm not forgetting this. What is it Ava?"

"Nothing it's just something Xavier said that usually plays with my head. Nothing important." I said trying to shrug off the topic.

"Hey I'll decide if it's nothing." He tilted my chin to his face.

He's not going to let this down.

"Is it possible that you could love me?" I put my head down to hide my heated cheeks.

"Why would you ask that?" He said. I couldn't see his face so I got a little bit of courage to continue.

"Xavier said you could never love me. That if you would ever love me it would only be by his help. Normally this isn't meant to bother me so. . . But I guess it is maybe because I have a tiny crush on you but it will fade. I'm sure of it." I trying to convince myself more than him.

"Look at me."

I didn't look a little bit to scared to see his reaction.

"Look at me." He said this time lifting my chin to make sure I saw him.