Never going to escape

The Storm

I couldn't believe what I was seeing, My anger replaced by worry and my worry replace just so my anger could return. Robbie's house smelled like cheap liquor, and the sounds coming from the living room made me want to scream. I slowly made my way towards them, and sure enough Robbie was there. Three other guys were with him, each of them talking too loud to hear me come in, there attention was on the game before them. They were drunk, and Robbie was the drunkest and loudest of the pack.

I recognize the four guys from our team at school, but didn't really like them. Josh, Shawn, and Dexter.

Robbie missed my fathers funeral to hang with these ass holes. I wanted to grab something and throw it at the tv, I was always one for dramatics, but settled for unplugging the tv.

All the guys begun groaning and protesting their disapproval which just pissed me off even more, but my attention was fully on Robbie. He was avoiding eye contact.

    "Robbie!!" My voice easily went over the rest of the guys instantly causing them to be silent . 

   "What?" He asked nonchalantly.

   "WHERE THE FUCK WERE YOU?!" My tone was deadly.

   "Look man chill the fuck out, he was here chilling why you so pressed? We clearly see who the girl in the relationship is" Josh said causing the others to laugh.

"Josh I wasn't aware that you were gay, seeing as you're riding my boyfriends dick so hard" The guys instantly starting to laugh even harder, all except Robbie who looked concerned for his friend.

Josh stood up trying desperately to seem intimidating, but he wasn't scaring me.

"Wanna say that again? " He asked causing Robbie to raise from his seat.

"Are you deaf bitch?" My tone was calm, I knew I could take Josh, before I could prove my theory Robbie was in between us placing his hand on my chest.

   "Let's talk" He begged. I decided to follow him out of the living room, moments later hearing the tv back blairing.

    "Why didn't you come?" Tell me you have a real reason and that you didn't stand me up to hang out with guys on our football team"  I wanted to believe there was a reason he'd do what he was doing, this was unlike Robbie.

    "Today wasn't just hard for you, I needed a drink and Tim called-"

    "Oh ok. So Timothy called you and told you to get fucked up while you knew I needed you" I exclaimed

   "You're fucking here instead of being with your sister and mom who probably need you, don't give me shit. I didn't want to go to a funeral, so I didn't. As far as comforting you. We can just chill and get your mind off it" I couldn't believe what I was hearing.

   "Get over it? Get over you missing today, I didn't just have a bad fucking day my father had to get buried and I've been fucking comforting my sister and mother all day, but hadn't had a second to actually show how I felt, you were suppose to be there like I would be there for you"

    "Stop bitching to me Seth, You're ruining my fucking vibe!" He screamed

   I hated being screamed at.

   "Don't fucking talk to me about a vibe, you're drunk ass fuck!" I screamed right back.

    "Oh so now I'm a drunk like your father" It was barley a whisper, but I heard it clearly.

I wanted to smack the shit out of him, I wanted him to hurt like I was hurt, I wanted him to feel exactly what I was feeling, but that was impossible. There was no way he could feel the heartache I was, I wasn't even angry, I was just done.

"We're done" Was all I said as I left the room we were in, I walked pass Josh who was saying some sort of sarcastic remark I couldn't hear. I wanted noting more than to be as far away from Robbie as possible.

   I didn't even make it out the front door as i was grabbed roughly and pulled into a warm embrace , so warm I almost found myself seeking comfort from it. Familiar, Warm, comfortable. I almost had fallen for Robbie's spell, than the words he just said a moment ago rung into my head.

   "A drunk like your father"

  With all my might I pushed into Robbie's chest freeing myself from his hold. He looked at me with shocked eyes.

    "Did I sound like I was joking? Did I sound like I was unsure of what I was fucking saying?! Did I sound like I-" He cut me off forcing his lips onto my own, once again I almost feel for what he was doing. I almost forgot what he said, but forgetting would be betrayal to my father. 

    Once again I pushed Robbie with all my strength, but this time he barley moved an inch, he held onto me forcing me into the kiss. When he finally pulled back I was even more pissed than where I started.

   "LET. ME. GO"  Robbie reluctantly released me of his hold.

  "We can't break up Seth, you promised me no matter what- that was before you spoke on my father Robbie, there's nothing here anymore" That was a lie, I knew damn well I still loved Robbie, but I wasn't going to let him off so easily. Not while my father was involved.

    I left Robbie's house leaving behind everything he and I were. I knew in my heart I'd probably never get over him, but I deserved someone who wouldn't hurt me. I deserved someone who wouldn't talk about something so disheartening.