ELIDETH MERCURY RAISED AGAIN FROM HER ASHES TO BECOME A STRONGER WOMAN. WILL SHE BE ABLE TO FACE EVERYTHING THIS DANGEROUS TIME TRAVEL HAS IN STORE FOR HER?
Freddie's strange amnesia was a break in my particular winding road but instead of feeling relieved by the renewed and unfailing interest the singer took in me, just served to place ourselves in a plane of unreality. As though nothing was wrong between us but actually it was.
I wasn't strong enough to ignore or reject his constant shows of affection towards me. Pretending indifference was not an option and I ended up in his bed before I knew what I was really doing.
And afterwards, when we were released, we spent some minutes looking at our eyes, with our faces in each other's hands. Eventually I wish that stubborn amnesia couldn't disappear but then I regretted it because it was another deceit in Freddie's life. And therefore, a self-deceit for me. Not remembering me, turned his life into a fake cloud despite the fact he looked so happy. And that was addictive to me.
Elideth Mercury and her addictions. I must go right to the root of the problem and separate our ways. I made a firm commitment to it as I felt that only when he wrapped me into his arms and all his warmth enveloped my body protective, that felt like home.
All through that strange season we only had sex a couple of times and was a funny experience. The plaster cast turned Freddie into a beautiful mummy, entrusting his whole body to me.
- Are you ok? -I asked him, taking off carefully the last piece of clothes, trying not to hurt him.
- It's this damn leg.
- Did I do any harm to you?
- It's just itches like hell. I'm going mad.
- Hold on.
I borrowed one knitting needle from Joe and I sneaked it into the plaster, scratching him. Freddie leant his head back violently, biting his lips with pleasure.
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- I'm gonna have an orgasm and you know it -he said suddenly, opening up again his glowing eyes.
- More relieved? -I wanted to know with a smile.
- Yes... thank you.
Freddie's "thank yous" never sounded sweeter than around that weird period in our lives. There, stuck in that unreality not knowing how long I could play on this game of love.
- Keep with the relief... please -he pleaded me bringing my hands to his sex.
I was leading the lovemaking and sex looked different. Freddie, wearing that ugly plaster cast, was the most tempting thing in the universe. It was like a miracle having him so still, helpless and so available to my hands and mouth. I could only get that tying him up at any other point.
But this time around he was not tied up, just trusting me, whatever I came up with. And once again, Elideth lost her control, trapped by the desire.
He was sitting up and I laid face down in front of him. I brought his two hands over my naked bum, as I was lying between his spreading legs.
