As it was (Abel Heilon)

His Entry

The End

Imperial Year XXXX

If you were alive, you would be very much pissed to see me writing off in your own diary.

But you aren't here so.

It's been almost two decades since you're gone.

Our daughter's about to get married, can you believe that?

I can't believe I let that brat sway our daughter like that.

She's very powerful and strong like you. If you were here I bet you would be very proud of her.

She had already taken care of the things we strive to do during our teenage year, to take care of the crown.

You know.

I never said I love you, have I?

You know that too, right?

I have always been afraid that everything I loved and will love and cherish would be taken away from me like what had happened to me and my dad when I was a child, our mother was taken away from us and have been banished by the north.

You know that, that's why you pretend and stick with the fact that I don't love you. But you know that I do.

I was afraid you'll be taken away from me so I had to deny the fact that I love you.

But if I knew you'll be taken away from me just like that, then I should have been greedy from the very first place.

I thought that we would have more time.

I thought that if I deny what I felt about you, we would have more time, maybe not as a lover but as friends or even casual companions for life.

When you vanished from my sight, I hate that you had that look of no regrets on your face.

Because I have a lot of regrets when it comes to you.

You left too soon.

I wasn't done loving you yet.

I haven't showed you that I love you yet.

That I love you too.

Nothing was the same as it was when you died.