Perfect Disaster.

9. Tit for Tat.....

Aniya.

The Bon fire is a huge success. Besides the fact that Chase is ignoring me, everyone was having a great time. I didn't want our argument to ruin my night, so I continued to have fun.
Not worrying about Chase.

"Hey Aniya." Rebecca walked up to me.

I can't lie, I'm a bit tipsy. "Hey Rebecca, I haven't seen you in so long." I gave her a hug.

She laughed hugging me back "I know. Where have you been?"

I rolled my eyes, holding my breath for a second before speaking. I mean this was a long story. "Chase and I, you know we've been rocky lately. I've been so caught up in trying to make that work."
I can't lie, my tipsy state got me trauma dumping. "But I'm tired of not getting the same respect."

Rebecca looked at me nodding her head. "I totally feel you on that. My girlfriend, she been keeping a lot of stuff from me lately. I told her I need space to figure things out." 

I looked at her sadden face, I couldn't help but mimic it. She looks so sad. "Take this time to focus on you. What's meant to be will be." I hugged her when I seen a tear drop down her cheek.

"Hang in there, and try to forgot about it, just have fun tonight." I pulled away, rubbing her shoulders.

She wiped her tears. "I need a drink."

"Come on." I wrapped my arm around hers leading us to the drinks.

When we approached the coolers, I saw Camille and Chase talking. I tried to keep my eyes off of them, but I couldn't help notice how touchy feely they were.

They seem to laugh at everything that was said, as they playfully hit on each other.
Nothing's ever that funny.

I decided to walk away, I didn't want to fight nor cause a scene. This is the shit I was tired of.

Briana walked up to me giving a sympathetic look. "Are you okay?"

I looked at her, not being able to lie to her. "I don't think I can do it anymore." A couple of tears trailed down my cheek.

She rubbed my back trying to comfort me. "Talk to him. If you guys can't work out something, call it quits. Don't keep putting yourself through this."

I nodded, agreeing with her every word. If I wanted things to change, I had to lay it all out.

"You should talk to him." She wiped my cheeks. She buffed under my eyes, trying to fix my concealer. "Okay, go."

I smiled at her one last time before walking off to find Chase.
I found him in the same spot, talking to Camille.

I walked up to them, interrupting their conversation. "I have to talk to you."

He must've noticed how serious I was because he didn't object. "Okay." He simply said his eyes trained on me.

We walked back to the cabin, my mind raced the whole way there.
We finally reached our bedroom closing the door behind us.

"Are you okay." His face held a bit of concern.

I cleared my throat sitting on the bed. I didn't really know where to start. "Can we sit down on the bed?"

He gave me a confused look before slowly walking over and sitting down. "Okay?"

I took a deep breath before beginning. "The past month I feel like we haven't been communicating with each other."

"Okay?"

"And .." I looked down at my hands not being able to look him. "I don't think I can do this anymore."

The room fell silent for a minute causing me to look back up at him.

He sat there shocked. "You can't do.." he collected my words. "This." He pointed between us. "Anymore?"

I nodded, finding it hard to hold eye contact. "Maybe we need a break. Playing this stupid tit for tat game is exhausting. "

"Tit for tat game?" He pressed his lips together, releasing them into a petty smile. "Because I invited Camille?"

I shook my head looking back down at my hands. "Not only that. It seems like you have a lot going on and you don't want me apart of that, you'd rather vent to Camille. "

His eyebrows scrunched in anger. "That's a lie. Why are you lying?"

"I'm not. We argue almost every other day, about the same shit. We can never find a common ground."

"Every couple fights Aniya." He threw his head back annoyed.

"About the same thing over and over again? At least fifty percent of our relationship is about other people. I don't want to worry about other people anymore."

He looked at me blinking slowly, he held his bottom lip in his mouth as he thought. "So you're done with me?"

"I think we should take a break." I mumbled out looking down.

He stared at me, trying to understand. "And this shit is coming from..." he searched my eyes for answers. I could tell he was holding in his emotions.

"Everything. I love being with you and spending time with you, But I feel like we both have a lot to figure out."

He didn't say a word so I continued. "I don't want this to be the end of us."

He looked at me his eyes showing his hurt. At this point I wanted to take everything back but I felt like we need this.

"How can you say that after breaking up with me?" He looked away from me shaking his head.
"We just had sex" he muttered getting up, that thought making him more upset.
He kicked the wall causing a loud bang to run through the room.

He turned around facing me as I gasped at his outburst. "No, warning ... You let me fuck you today, knowing you were going to leave me. That's real fucked up."

"Don't do that." I stood up walking over to him.

"Nah, you're doing this to me." He pointed his finger at me shaking it. "You played me." He walked closer to me closing the space between us. "I actually love you Aniya."

"I love you too. A break is not forever." I tried to hold his cheeks but he pushed me away. Tears streamed down my face, everything I said seem to make him more angry.

"You love me but your breaking up with me?" He laughed out. "And if I find out it's for Logan, I'm fucking him up every time I see him." He shrugged, His anger darkening his eyes.

I rolled my eyes, stepping back. "It's not for no one Chase."

He turned around opening the door. "For his sake, I hope not." He said before walking out.

"Where are you going?" I questioned following behind him.

"Back to the party."