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Chapter 44 Met Again

So we met again after a long time..

"Oh my gosh! Is that really you Nina!? You look gorgeous hell. You’ve become a real beauty you know that?" Janice said while hugging me.

She looked really different.

"I barely recognised you. You’ve become such a lady and beautiful as fuck" i whispered to her ear while hugging and smiling. I haven’t smiled for a while.

I knew mom would do that to make me be happy. Atlesst to make me smile. I've been in broken for too long. It always felt illegal for me to smile as if I never deserved to smile as if I did something wrong. But this one, this time with Janice didn’t feel illegal. It felt freedom. I Didn't know why.

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"He is cute and dashing Just as your husband." i said while strocking the baby's cheeck. He was staring at me with his eyes widened and mouth open. He looked so cute so that i wanted to pick him up and kiss his cheeks. But I'm not a Baby.

"I think he likes you Nina" she said.

I tapped his nose twice and he laughed. He seemed to love it.

"Take him" she picked him up and handed to me. I was hastate first but took him.

He stared at me for a few second then started touching my cheeks and laughed. He found my hair and started playing with it. "He is be the most obedient and cute baby I've ever seen" I said 'cause he still haven’t pulled my hair or hurt me.

"He is like this around the people he likes"

I smiled. He stared at my smile then started giggling. I kissed his cheeks and started playing with him. he seemed to have fun. After a while he fell asleep and putted him back on his bed.

"What's his name?" I asked.

"Jonas, my grandmother named him."

I sighed. Because one thing was again roaming on my head.

"What is it?" she asked And she knew it. She always knew it. This is just she and Ethan who could read me like an open book. But still i Couldn't ask What is true love

"You forgot me after married. You Didn't even invite me in it"

"Oh Damn Ely You remembered it" She teased me with that name that only one person have ever called me. I rolled my eyes. But she had fun out of it.

"What about You? You guys? Aren’t inviting us?"

If i look back Janice was my best friend while Jake was Ethan's best friend at the time. I wondered if he kept in touch with him.

"Did Ethan keep in touch with you guys?"

"Well, he is the reason why we are neighbours. He seems to be cold but he is still that asshole " She said with a smile.

I miss that asshole.

"How long have you guys been like this?" she asked.

"Like what?"

"Like being cold you know what i mean"

"After i moved to Paris"

She gave me a sympathy look because she knew it been hell of a time.

"Actually, we never met after that until we met a few weeks ago"

She glanced at my wrist. She also knew how and the reason why met.

"What Jake? Did he become the greatest basketball player or something"

She laughed. "He works with your boyfriend dear"

"As if"

She laughed again. I wish i could laugh about my boyfriend...

"Secret police. That's what he is now and your boyfriend is as well"

I know it.. I know so well that I fucking want to disagree to that. To the fact why he chose this dangerous job.

He never mentioned it. And i pulled it like some office shits..

"That's why he is so clever"

"What about you make a move on him?-" before she could even finish I snapped at her words, "As If I want to! Fuck him. He might hate me and so would I. I just want to leave this hell"

"He could never hate you. In fact I know he never Hated you. Ask Jake?"

"I Don't need to know that"

My expression fell. I'm feeling bunch of hopes that he might still like me or maybe he never did? He just used me? It's always about Him. ALWAYS..

"Whatever Let's go out and let the baby rest" she said making the dark clouds of my thoughts go away.

"Yeah. He is just really cute I wanna be with him all the time"

"Come here alot. You live in the neighbourhood"

I'll leave soon. I hate to be around Ethan And him.being around me..

"Yeah I will"

I still lied. She gave me the brightest smile that still reminds me of our fresh years.

My life's been a mess ever since I was born.

"Are you happy with him?" i asked while staring at the baby. I asked aboyt Jake and she knew.

"That's why I'm still here, with him, and his baby. I'm happy, really happy that's why I love him. That's why We are here. That's why we are together Nina" She said while kneeling to her baby. The baby Jake gave her. Her new world.

"I'm happy for you" I said. She is strocking her baby's cheeks amd i was fighting my tears. Suddnely being loved by someone this much, this much energy, this many things makes ut impossible for me to even imagine.

I'm really happy you aren’t experiencing my pain, our pain...