This Song Is Called You.

10. I want to feel you

Porchay was always the cutest. Despite the years, he still had his baby face.
His big, expressive eyes were probably Kimhan's obsession. Of course, Porchay's existence was actually Kim's passion, but he loved his boy so much than even words couldn't express it clearly.

"Don't be childish."

Porchay crossed his arms, and ignored Kim.

"Don't sulk too... Be my good boy, na na..." whispered the singer with his soft voice. He caressed Chay's cheek lightly, afraid to hurt him.

"You're so *cough* mean...P'Kim." Chay whispered, his cheeks already turning red.

Kimhan smiled at him, he approached his little angel and kissed him, smelling the bitter taste of the medicine, which was really disgusting by the way...

"P'Kim..." whimpered Porchay, he fluttered his eyelashes rapidly, trying to seduce his lover with his doe eyes.

Kim immediately frowned, he knew that Porchay wanted...

"No."

"Please, P'Kim..." Porchay coughed, his eyes watering and a terrible taste in his mouth. "You never turned me down before, please na na..."

Kimhan put a hand on Chay's chest, his face serious.

"Chay, I know.... But no, it's too risky. I don't want to hurt you more."

Porchay stopped him with a kiss. The young demon slid his arms along Kim's neck, and deepened their kiss by drawing his lover closer. Kimhan frowned, he was rigid : if Chay was being too....much, Kim's mental will break into pieces.
He didn't want to give in and risked Chay's health... But Chay got annoyed and his cough got worse:

"P'KIM!"
"Porchay enough, I said no."

Chay glared at him, he was trying not to cough again, he grabbed Kimhan's face in his cold hands:

"Kimhan Theerapanyakul. If I have to die, I don't want to feel like a virgin again...I want to feel you...inside me... please. "

" Don't talk nonsense. You are sick." Kim scolded, despite everything, the determination in the look in his little demon made him wince.

" Don't you love me anymore...? Do I look like a zombie for real ? Just like P'Tankhun said, this is why you won't fuck me ?"

" PORCHAY NO. I love you but..."

Kim stepped back, but Porchay grabbed his arm, he didn't even have to force him, because the singer let it go.
He found himself under Porchay, the latter once again was refraining himself from coughing, and his shoulders trembled. He leaned down and whispered in Kimhan's ear :

"You're mean...you seduce me with a kiss and then you turn me down."

Chay's voice sounded better with the medicine but it never lasted, the sickness kept coming back and more violently. Kim sighed, he slipped his hands under Chay's t-shirt, and the latter sighed with relief. Under his fingers, he felt Porchay's thinness, and Kimhan frowned but Chay kissed him with strength, he slipped his tongue into Kim's mouth, licking each wall with devotion and care.

"Chay! N-no....you are..." Kim moaned in his hoarse voice.

The singer did not know what to do, Chay was fragile and sick, he needed rest and not... him. He tried to lightly push Chay's hips as he sat on top of him, but Chay moaned as he felt Kimhan's crotch against his ass...

"I'm begging you.. Hm ? Please." Chay whispered between their kiss.

Kimhan couldn't control himself anymore, he gently turned Chay around. But it was way too long for the young boy's taste...

"P'Kim..hurry *cough* up..."

"No, if you want me, it will be as I want it, I don't want you to make an intense effort, it will make your cough worse. Do you understand? "

" Y-y-yea-h... Ple*cough*as..."

Chay whined, but he took off his t-shirt, letting Kim plant kisses on his nipple. Kimhan licked Chay's chest, and then he started to bend down, stroking the young boy with his knee... Porchay was already a mess, feeling good for the first time since a week.

" Arghhhh don't stop...please..."

" Hushh... If you cough too much, I will stop."

" No..."

However, Kim was deadly serious. He wanted it too, but not now. Not while Porchay was breathing so hard. He helped his lover, took off his pants and putted Chay's member in his mouth.

" AH !!" Porchay yelled, he was completely startled by the sudden action.

Kim started to use more saliva, never letting go of Chay's gaze, making sure the boy was fine. He played with his tongue on Porchay, making the boy scream.

" Arghhhhh...ahhh... Wa-wai-wait ! " Porchay panicked, but Kim's mouth didn't let go, and Chay's body started to tremble with force...

Kim felt his lover going crazy, he could even feel his heartbeat under his tongue. He speed up and Chay came while whispering Kim's name.
He almost collapsed again, and leaned Kim for a deep kiss. His legs was shaking and his breath was cut short...

" P'Ki....m...you..too...*

" I am fine... Sleep, my love, you need it."

Porchay eyes were sad, but he couldn't help Kimhan. He was feeling bad again... Kim stroked his boy's back softly and he even sang for him a little...

" P'Kim...you are the best..."

Kimhan smiled, giving Chay's forehead kiss.

" Sleep. You are safe. I will protect you. Once the enemy's threat eliminate, we will go back to the hospital, you will recover and we will go back to Seoul... You loved it during our trip, remember ? I saw you eyes sparkled so much that night that I felt like the most lucky man on earth...."

" Hmmm... I love...you.."

Porchay was already falling asleep. But Kim never stopped talking with his sweet voice, until something was off... Chay's was too calm, it was unusual, he always made soft sound when he was alseep....

" Chay...?" Kim's eyes started to change, he felt his mind go blank. " Chay... Why are you so cold...? My love...? Baby I know you are tired but can you open your eyes just a second ? Please..."

But Porchay didn't react, he was already gone.