This Song Is Called You.

12. I am not a monster

[ A month later, at Kim's and Chay's. ]

"Khun Kimhan."

Nine looked at his master with concern, the kitten in his arms fidgeting.
Kim didn't look up from hks document, he had too much to do, Kinn had become unable to work therefore, Kim was in charge.
A month had passed since the attack. Porsche had undergone emergency surgery, he now had a huge scar on his throat and had difficulty speaking...even if strangely they still managed to argue with these two ( as always...).
Porchay had fallen into a deep coma, thank to Doctor Top, and the only good thing was that he no longer coughed.
Kim's heart was chilled as if Chay had died that day. He was like waiting to resume his life with his lover. Without Porchay, it was like seeing everything in black and white, he no longer wrote songs, he couldn't think. He was dead inside.
Kinn had avenged their family, strongly and violently, to such an extent that Tankhun had ended up traumatized and locked himself in his room for a week. You could still smell the blood in the hotel...
Kim couldn't do anything. he couldn't fight this damn virus devoring his lover's lungs. Porchay had just been saved by Doctor Top in time, luckily Tankhun had asked Arm and Pol to go get him, without Top, Porsche and Porchay would have died right now.

" Khun Kimhan.." tried Nine again, his nervous expression annoyed Kim who nearly punched Nine.

" WHAT THE HELL DO YOU FUCKING WANT ?!"

Nine backed up to the other end of the room, letting Han down. The poor cat growled with fear and ran away.

"I'm sorry !! Don't kill me! Please !" cried Nine hiding his face.

Face hardened with anger, Kimhan ordered Nine to leave. He then opened a new bottle, he was drinking too much, and Porchay would scold him when he woke up, but it was the only thing that made him forget. Forget that Chay... Porchay won't wake up soon...maybe never at all. Maybe his lover was dead.

Tankhun entered the room, he opened the door so hard that he almost broke it.

"Hello, hello, << mister I am in a bad mood forever don't talk to me >>. If you could not yell at your bodyguards, that will be nice. This is only seven a.m... Damn, what a beautiful day ruined by your moody attitude."

Kim glared at his brother but Tankhun crossed his arms and stared at him:

"Porsche wants to see his little brother and Kinn is on the verge of coming here and attacking your fucking house just for the right to see Porchay..."

Kim looked down at his clenched fists, he spoke in a hoarse voice:

"It's .... Because of them. They put everyone in danger and now they want to see Porchay?! If he hadn't had to leave the hospital..."

"Yes, yes... that's enough, no one is to blame, Porchay is sick, and you're punishing everyone here, even yourself. Chay would be very angry to know that you stop his own family from seeing him. You were devastated when Porsche took his little brother to the island away from us... But you are doing the same thing."

Tankhun grabbed the drink Kim was about to raise to his lips and threw it against a wall.

"Damn it, fuck y... !!!!" Kim roared but suddenly Tankhun slapped him hard.

It was the first time Tankhun raised his hand on someone and Kimhan needed it. He pointed an accusing finger at little brother:

"Get a hold of yourself, little brother, stop acting like a jerk, be yourself. Because Porchay won't want such an asshole by his side when he woke up. I really have to slap you until you become yourself again ?! And for fucking sake,stop drinking alcohol, it will not help you." hissed Tamkhun.

Kim backed up, his face burning, he restrained himself from hitting his big brother, and howled in rage before sitting on his leather sofa.
Tankhun walked away, leaving the building, he was mad and kept growling meaningless insults.
Kim remained immersed in silence for an hour, doing nothing, he was trying to regain his usual cold calm. After a moment alone, he called his guard back :

"Nine, come here."

The guard entered timidly, his back bent to the ground, looking frightened.

" Yes sir ?"

"Tell me what's the problem? Talk..."

"Sir, there was a slight change in temperature, I double checked, the room didn't change but Khun Porchay's body heat increased... I am sure of it, 100 percent sure."

Kim nodded slowly, his lover in the other room was on watch night and day and any changes had to be reported to Kim.

" That's all ? Thank, you can leave, keep watching after Porchay. Do not let anyone less enter the room and ..."

"Wait !!! Wait, Khun Kim....There is something else... well, while you argued with Khun No...Khun Porchay, I believe...I believe he reacted. It was a very slight move

Kim's heart stopped. He blinked several times but grabbing Nine's collar :

" What the fuck did you say ?!"