Floating (2nd book)

7. Leave him

Once we get inside the house Asher turns around and furiously runs his hands through his hair.

"Asher, what was that?" I roughly ask him.

Asher's blue eyes are blazing with anger.

"Seriously? Him?" he exclaims.

I'm taken aback. Nothing happened! I tell him this.

"Nothing happened, Asher!"

He scoffs.

"You were practically waiting for me to die!" he yells with large hand gestures.

My chest squeezes and I find it slightly hard to breathe.

"No, I wasn't! How could you think that?"

Asher shakes his head.

"Your just like her," he sighs.

Like who?

"What?" I ask even though I know who he's already talking about.

"The other Rose," he says.

My lip quivers. How could he?

I start to cry.

I can't stop myself. The tears start to develop and they spill over onto my flushed cheeks.

"Rose," Asher says disgusted," don't cry."

"How can y-you say th-that?" I ask flustered.

Asher steps towards me.

"I'm a demon, Rose, this is what you got yourself into," he says ruefully.

For a second, I'm disgusted with myself. Is this really what it's going to be like with us? This is poison. Its going to slowly kill me.

"Your not a demon, your mortal!" I refute.

Asher shakes his head.

"My humanity died a long time ago."

I thought it was me that made him feel human! I thought I made him feel human emotions. I thought a lot of stuff, that seem to feel wrong now. But maybe it's the idea of Asher and me together that's wrong.

"You are human!" I scream.

Asher shakes his head vigorously.

"No, I want to be human, Rose. Its not happening! No matter how hard I try, I always lead myself back to the pleasure and sin of being a demon. I want to be human, but I want to be a demon more."

I'm speechless. I have no words.

"I love you, but I don't think I can give up being a demon for you."

And with that, I walk out.

"Rose," I faintly hear behind me, but its too late.

He doesn't run after me, that honestly explains everything I need to know.

I break into a sprint and run out the door.

It's dark out, but I need to get out of here. I can't breathe.

I sprint on the gem engraved road.

I run until I don't know where I am.

I trip on a large sapphire and fall on my knees.

I start crying again, but this time I don't hold it in.

I pound my fists on the ground and let my tears fall off my tear stained cheeks and onto the road.

I'm crying so hard I get a pounding headache, but I don't care.

In my mind I put this perfect vision of him, but I kept forgetting he was a demon.

He was a fucking demon!

A demon!

A child of Satan!

How stupid could I be?

I was so naïve to think I could change him!

I need to let him go, but he's the the only one I see.

I slowly get up and run into a densely packed forest.

I run and let the trees and leaves cut into my skin.

I can't see anything it's so dark.

I put my hands out in front of my face until I grab a tree and sit underneath it.

I lay my head against it.

I don't cry, I just sit and try to clear my head.

I once said I loved sleep because your dead to the world. You feel no guilt, no pain or remorse. I want to sleep. I want to feel nothing. I'm tired of feeling.

Suddenly, a hand raises from the dirt.

I shriek and get up to my feet.

Another hand, slimy and sticky,grabs my ankle.

My entire body is suddenly pulled down into the ground.

How stupid could I be?
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