LOVE ME // TAEKOOK~ 💜💜 [ Completed ]

36.

" Tae is everything really alright ?" Jungkook asked again without looking away from the road.

Tae hummed in reply. He was lost in thoughts. Jungkook sighed, he did not know how to approach Tae, but he didn't wanted to pry too much either. He kept quite turning his focus on the road.

Tae's pov

maybe I should't have came to the hospital. This visit was as awful as the previous one. I never liked hospitals to begin with and now this hate is only increasing day by day.

Jungkook already asked me the same question for the tenth time. But what can I say in reply. I don't even know the answer myself. Am I alright ? If not why not then ?

So I only hummed to his questions. I know he wasn't assured or satisfied with my answer but I am thankful that he didn't pry more, because I myself didn't had the answer, neither to his question nor to mine.

As I was staring into the daylight, that family came in mind again. They looked so happy but if you look a little closely it's all an illusion. Were they actually happy? Or is it that no one is actually happy and just pretending to be.

So many questions were coming in my head but the answers were no where near.

[ For the conversation Jungkook would be bold and Tae normal ]

" Jungkook tell me something " I couldn't help but ask..

" What "

" Are you happy? " I asked. He looked at me oddly but not surprised which confused me but before I could ask

" I am " he said with a fond smile, and he really did looked happy and content but I wasn't satisfied with his answer.

" What happiness actually is Jungkook? How can one clarify that he is happy? "

I suddenly felt Jungkook's hand on my thighs, he was gently caressing them. His warmth soothed my restless mind. I don't know how , but somehow he knows what I need, is that what they call true love ?

" Happiness has different variations for different people. What defines your happiness could be someone's misery.

But I believe, happiness is something that allows you to show all your emotional and having someone accept all of it and love you all the same ".

" but Jungkook is it even possible to accept every part of someone, no matter how you much love them.

And the question is why should you. What's the point of accepting everything.

What if they lied to you, betrayed you, hurted you to the points of no returns.

And even after all that if you accept everything then are you even human anymore. How low one should stand in love ? For love ?

It's not like everything will be solved. Things might just turn for the worst" I don't even know what I am saying anymore. My mouth was working on it's own.

" Or it all might just work out "

" That's just toxic positivity. It will only drown you " I was so upset angry at Jungkook's answer that I couldn't help but turn to other direction. I felt like I was talking to a stranger, well now that I think about it we don't really know much about eachother.

And we are already in a relationship, god I must have been gone crazy.

And then he replied almost like he read my mind.

" Relationships are not like giving exams Tae, you can't just go to it with everything known and prepared and even in exams sometimes unexpected questions comes right ?

Life is like that. It's just that most of the times unexpected things happens and we act recklessly because we were not prepared.

But it doesn't mean we are wrong or horrible unconsiderative people, just like if you can't answer one or two questions in exams or mess up one exam doesn't mean you are a bad student.

It's just that every people have different ability in accepting and working things out. Some stay clam and some just losses it.

That's how life is "

" But what if there was other solutions yet you act recklessly and hurted someone badly, broke their trust.

Why must the other person trust you again, believe you saying it's for your good and shit. If it's for my good just ask me about it, don't make decisions for me.

Why must I trust a betrayer again for the sake of love.

If it's for love , I don't want that kind of love where I have to put myself down for the other. " I felt something wetting my cheeks. As i touched my cheeks i felt warm tears falling from my eyes. I didn't even realise when I stared cry and why.

" Let me ask you a question Tae "

" What "

" If you were given the choice that either you can save my life or save my love for you.

If you save my life I will no longer love you and if you save our love, I will no longer live .

What will be your choice "

" What kind of bizzare question is this Jungkook "

" Just answer me "

" Isn't it obvious, I will save your life "

" Why "

" Because if you are not even there with me , what's the point of this love "

" Really but you could just live on with memories of our love "

" That's just bullshit, you have to be logical here. If you stay alive we can fall in love again, what's the point of saving love when the person I love won't be here anymore "

" But Tae you didn't asked for my opinion".