I thought I needed you,
But look what you done to me
Love isn't fair no matter what you do
You could be perfect
And I'd still wanna leave
Maybe it's my abandonment issues
Or maybe it's just who I am
But love can't be all it's cracked up to be
Or maybe I've not found the right one yet
And I've only dealt with the toxic side of things
I wanna be the one to see
Why I love you so fucking much it hurts
It breaks every bone inside my body,
And I don't want to love you anymore
So why am I sitting here writing songs about you?
If I had the chance I'd start all over and love you right,
But I can't and that's completely fine,
So now all I gotta do is move on, and start over.
Even if every relationship that I have is just a rerun of the same love
I'm willing to make this work,
Because I can't love you, but I want to.
But all I know is hate and the toxic cycle of love and hate,
I wanna be the one to see
Why I love you so fucking much it hurts
It breaks every bone inside my body,
And I don't want to love you anymore
So why am I sitting here writing songs about you?
If I had the chance I'd start all over and love you right,
Maybe my future relationships won't be as destructive as ours was?
But God if I have to go threw this again I'm Afraid I'm gonna die. I know I won't make it out alive.
A part of me will always wanna go back, but I can't because back tracking in life is the one thing my therapist tells me will ruin all the progress that I've made,
And even tho you're worth ruining my mental health over,
God knows I won't make it through another heart break.
I wish things were different
Oh god how I'd treat you so...
I wanna be the one to see
Why I love you so fucking much it hurts
It breaks every bone inside my body,
And I don't want to love you anymore
So why am I sitting here writing songs about you?
If I had the chance I'd start all over and love you right,
But god I won't go back even if I could.
Be a aide love to me isn't what we had,
It's so much more than that.
And I wish I could let myself move on from what we had, and I will, maybe I already have and working on forgiveness is what I need to focus on.
And I'm going to, because after all, it takes two to be in the wrong.
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Perception of an Angel
PoetryI wrote this book of poems based off my struggles with mental health, heartbreak, and love. I wrote it to help other people who struggle with mental illness as well, I named the book perception of an angel, because I see the people who struggle the...
