My Hero Academia: The Next Generation Book 3

Chapter 18

     "Fuck.... Fuck! Just... Keep a fucking steady hand." I huffed to myself, sitting in my bedroom as I tried to string together a few notes on the guitar. Yet I could barely hit the right strings consistently, my hand was twitching and shaking bad. One of the many things that I've been dealing with during my recovery, some days I have spasms and twitches. My physical therapist had explained it to me as being a part of the whole phantom pain phenomenon. My brain was still mentally registering the damage done to my body, so at times it would act accordingly. Sending false signals to my body of damage or pain despite any injuries being long gone. She said that hopefully most of them would subside, but sadly some were gonna stick around. Eventually after continued failed attempts I would let out a soft yell out of anger, nearly chucking the guitar on the ground but I was very quick to stop myself. I can't break this after only getting it last week, that'd be so fucked up.

     Letting out a slow shaky breath, I would rest the guitar back in my lap. Staring at nothing on the floor as my mind drew a blank, only being snapped out of it when I heard a light knock at the door and hearing my mom's voice.

     "Nosido? Are you alright?"

     "Y-Yeah mom... Just... Yeah..." I sighed to myself, looking at my shaking hand for a few moments as I tried to concentrate on getting it to stop. While I did, my mom would open the door and peek in. Letting out a soft sad sigh as she saw my hand and the guitar in my lap. Soon coming over and sitting down beside me.

      "Oh 'Sido... It's okay..." She would wrap an arm around me and lightly pull so I was lean against her, my hand still shaking as I started to tear up.

      "I-I just want it to be over... I wanna be normal again..."

      "'Sido, you are normal."

      "Well it doesn't feel like it." I let out a sharp breath, taking a moment to dry my eyes off with the palm of my hand before clearing my throat. "People stare at me... I know what they're thinking, they think I'm a monster... I was one... And that's all anyone is ever gonna think."

       "No, they won't think that forever." Her voice would suddenly get a little stern, lightly taking hold of my face and making me look at her. "Maybe now, yes. But once your body is strong again, once you're back to being a hero... You can change that."

     "I can't mom... I'm so behind, I don't think I'll be getting my license in time... I don't even know if I'll ever get one after what I've done." She would frown, pulling me into a more complete hug after I had moved my guitar out of the way. Lightly rocking me to help me calm down, eventually I would let out a soft sigh by the time I calmed down. Slowly lifting my head off her and smiling faintly. "Thanks mom..."

     "Of course, 'Sido... Say, have you tried untensing and tensing your hand at all? I had somewhat similar spasms a long time ago. Maybe squeezing it and taking some breaths could help?"

     "Not yet... Thanks for the tip though."

     "Of course... Your Dad and I are gonna be going to see a movie tonight, so I left some Yen on the counter for you and your brother to order something."

     "Oh? Heh... It's nice to see you guys doing good... I... I don't know how I fully feel about him still, but... I think I'm coming around more."

     "Take your time, it was a shock to your life. Just like... All these other things, but you'll get through it... I love you 'Sido, always will. Even in your dark times..." I couldn't help but smile hearing that. Leaning in to hug her slightly again before I let go, She would rub my back a moment before getting up and leaving. Letting out sigh, I would set my guitar against the foot of my bed and head over to my closet. Pulling out a tank top and sweatpants and switching into them before I got down on the floor, letting out a steady breath before I started to do a few sets of push-up holds. I had a pretty basic workout routine right now, just trying to get my body in some sort of shape again after how much I lost during my coma... Didn't help that I was putting on a bit of some weight too, so I had to start reworking my diet, hopefully I could be back to where I was before... I hate seeing myself so weak...