"𝐃𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐈𝐭 𝐅𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐅𝐮𝐜𝐤𝐞𝐝 𝐔𝐩 𝐖𝐞'𝐫𝐞 𝐍𝐨𝐭 𝐈𝐧 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞?"
- 𝐓𝐨𝐨 𝐌𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐓𝐨 𝐀𝐬𝐤, 𝐍𝐢𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐇𝐨𝐫𝐚𝐧✼ •• ┈┈┈┈๑⋅⋯ ୨˚୧ ⋯⋅๑┈┈┈┈ •• ✼
THE SOUND OF RAIN AND BATH WATER RUNNING... No the power didn't go out, just felt safe with each other in the dark. After a long conversation on the balcony and covered in raindrops.
Mikasa's fingers grazed against yours as you sat on the floor beside the bathtub. Her body relaxes whenever you quoted from the book or if you added some commentary along the lines. She could only see the side of your head till you turn to see if she has fallen asleep. She loves seeing your face.
"I laughed. ‘For a policeman, you’re very romantic.’
‘For an artist, you’re very afraid,’ he said." You said, rubbing your thumb against the book page.You related to everything in the book. Loving someone at the wrong time and wasting it with hateful wishes. Sadly all of us resemble each character. Mikasa is Tom. Eren is Marion. And lastly, you're Patrick.
You felt punished for liking Mikasa because she's in like with Eren. You believe that she only likes the ideal version of him and realize it's never going to work. And just maybe one day, she'll be in your arms.
"My answer to that was to kiss him hard on the mouth." You read the last line of the page before bookmarking it.
"Do you believe Tom truly loved Patrick but couldn't because of Marion?" Mikasa asked, looking down at you.
"Indefinitely." You whispered, "It's heartbreaking really. Marion had the ideal imagine of Tom being the one. But she couldn't accept it that Tom is in love with a man."
"Does she eventually?"
"She had to. She realized she was holding Tom back and thought getting rid of Patrick will bring them together again. Her guilt got the best of her and wanted to own it up by leaving."
There's a brief silence in the bathroom before Mikasa spoke again.
"Y/N, do you connect to the book in any way?" She said in a hush tone. You kinda pulled your fingers away from her which made her frown a little.
"I do."
You turned around, facing her so she could see you clearly. She's already staring at you with a sad smile while whispering a small "me too".
"I feel like I can relate to Tom. Not because of the cheating or awful sense of humor." You chuckled, "But he's confused. He works as a policeman who are known to hate gays. He's even dating Marion, who is a friend of his sisters. He thought using Marion as a cover for his love of Patrick would help."
You stared out in silence. Your eyes wondered around the bathroom as you put your head down slightly, "I can help you not be confused."
The sound the water in the tub move as she sat up. Her expression is unreadable. Is she angry? Relieved? Desperate?
Her face leaned down to yours, feeling her lips tickled against yours. Both of you didn't move in. Just letting her thumb trace your bottom lip.
"I can't." She said, pulling away from you. You still felt like you were in a trace. You glanced at her finally. She look embarrassed.
"It's okay if you don't wa-"
"No I want to"She squeezed her eyes shut tightly and let out a small sigh. "I never had a proper kiss before."
She waited for you to laugh, chuckle, giggle, hell maybe even snorting at her. She opened her eyes to see a confused look.
"Eren never properly kissed you?"
She shook her head yes, "We kissed but it's always a quick peck."
"So you never made out with anyone before?" She nodded her head again, resting it on her knees.
"I know it's embarrassing."
"It's not. I didn't date anyone till I was 18."She lifted her head up slightly, "How long did that last?"
"A day. He got on my nerves quick." You said in disgust. She laughed lightly. You hold onto her hand and directly stared in her eyes.
"Hey promise me this?"
Mikasa hummed, "I'll give you a proper kiss once you turn 20."
She frowned a little, "Why?"
"Because I'm in like with you Mikasa."
She smiles ── "I'm in like with you too, Y/N. Forever and always."
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