Lotus Blossom | {Nezha x reader}

Ch. 9 Aftermath

CW: Mentions of Low Self Worth / Self Destruction

Merda = Shit (In Italian)

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You woke up in your bed after the fire incident, your head hurt, your body hurt.... Everything hurt. You slowly got out of bed and looked out of your window, however instead of seeing a garden once beautiful and vibrant with colour and that you once loved dearly, now was in ruin the only thing you noticed was that it looked cleaner than what you did to it. It hurts you to see it like this, it hurts even more knowing that you caused it, you couldn't stand to look at it for any longer than you already have, turning away from your window quickly, and walking to your wardrobe and getting changed. After you did, you walked out of your room and was surprised when you seen breakfast at you bedroom door, there was a note beside the food,

"Hello My Lotus Blossom,
I apologise for not being here for you but I unfortunately had to return to the celestial realm to fulfil my duties. I promise once I have finished I will return.

- Third Lotus Prince, Nezha"

It read.

 You smile slightly at it. Knowing that he still cares after everything you stupid self put him through, that smile quickly faded as you as you told yourself "He shouldn't still care.. I would understand if he hate me now because of it.. If they all hate me now because of it..." You sigh as he picked up the food and took a bite, it was surprisingly still warm, beginning to go cold but mostly warm. You went down stairs with it and sat down to continue eating. After you cleaned up and put everything away you heard a knock on your door, you went up to open it. It was Yuze. He was with his little sister "Hello Y/n.." His voice was soft as to not scare you "Hi Mx L/n!" Mei's sounded energetic as ever like she isn't even bothered on what happened the day before, you give her a small smile at her but keeping quite "May we enter?" Your attention was brought back to Yuze as he asked for permission to enter your home. You just nodded stepping aside for the two to walk into your house, you closed the door after they did. Mei was snooping looking for something fun to do. "Hey... Mei... Do you like drawing..?" You her getting on one knee to go to the 5 year old level, she nodded excitingly. You smile at her and stand up and pull out your journal of parchment, the same one you use to create your own art in. You handed it to her along with a pencle, "You have fun while your brother and I talk. Ok?" You tell her "Yes Mx L/n." You give her another small smile as you walk over to Yuze who was sitting, he looked serious yet concerned you sat in front of him. None of you spoke, you two just stayed silent for a while.

"Y/n... After everything that happened. You must understand that I don't blame you. Mei is to young to grasp the severity of the situation-" He looked at his sister who was gleefully doodling in the parchment journal you own before looking back at you "-and my parents aren't saying anything about it, and.... The village.. I don't know. They could be thinking anything about it." He told you, you stayed silent even after he finished speaking, you were unsure how to proccess this. Yuze stood up after a long while after he realised you weren't going to talk, he sighed "Mei come on we need to leave now." He simply said Mei looked up at him disheartened that the fact they need to leave. She picked up the parchment drawing pad and gave it back to you, and go to her brothers side. She took his hand as he was opening the door "Until we meet again Y/n..." He said before leaving with Mei, closing the door behind him "Yeah..." You simply said after the door was fully closed.

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Two weeks. It has been two weeks since the incident and since You and Yuze talked. You haven't gone out your house to run your weekly errands, and barely eating everything seems pointless to you, you feel empty... 'Two years of work.... gone due to my inability to keep it together'  You thought as you sat in front of your lunch. Barley touched.
You sigh as you picked up the food threw it out. You looked around your kitchen 'Running out of food... I should probably get something... but then again why should I... It would just go to waste'  You thought procrastinating over going outside you stood there awhile still debating on this. Until...