🌺|He smelled like Flowers|🌺 |cyno x tighnari|

lies and padisarahs

Cyno POV:

"N-nilou?"
Nilou looks up at me tears streaming from her azure colored eyes.
"Where were you?..." She says obviously upset...i really did it this time.
"I-im sorry nilou i was just ugh i got caught up in something back at school and i ended up forgetting about you...im sorry..." I reach out to caress her head but she slaps my hand away.
"Save your apologies cyno...just take me home..." She sniffs wiping her tears away.
The walk to her place was silent she didnt speak a word to me. She walked several feet ahead of me obviously trying to keep a distance between us. I really went and fucked up i promised her yesterday that i wouldn't repeat the same mistake and then i go and pull the same bullshit i did yesterday, you really are stupid cyno...
As we arrive at her place, nilou's parents are already at the door. She walks in not saying a word to them, her dad gives me the scariest glare ive ever seen and fallows nilou into the house.
"What did you do..." Asked nilou's mom.
I couldn't answer, nothing that would come from my mouth would help my case, making excuses will just make my situation worse.
"Im honestly disappointed in you cyno..." Nilou's mom says walking into the house shutting the door. I could hear nilou break down and her father scolding her about me. Theres no getting out of this one...
I let out a loud sigh as i head back to school. I'll just say i was out with the team again...mom will understand right... I let out another sigh as i pull a cigarette out of my pocket and light it. I normally dont smoke, but when im stressed or just want to get away from people i do, i tend to have a bad habit of smoking my thoughts away when anxious. It may not seem like it but i like being alone i just Make a few exceptions like nilou or... tighnari...
I'm terrible when it comes to starting conversation with others and im not particularly the most social person out there. I've just been so used to being alone that being around so many people just became stressful overtime. It also didnt help that i was homeschooled for a portion of my life so i didnt really have contact with many people to begin with which lead to my bad social skills. I try making jokes to make up for my lack of personality but nothing works...and when i try explaining my jokes so it makes sense to people It just seems to push them away. The only response i ever get from telling jokes is either them ignoring me or just awkwardly laughing. If im being honest the only person who has genuinely laughed at my jokes is tighnari...even though nilou laughs at my jokes i can tell shes just doing it to make me feel better about myself....i might not have great people skills but i can read people like open books and if im being completely honest her lying like that hurts more than people saying my jokes suck..
I let out a sigh taking the cigarette out of my mouth and crushing It under my foot. I should really be on my home instead of feeling sorry for myself... I put the box of cigarettes in my back pocket and walk to the direction of my house taking my time. I know ill probably get a scolding from collei once i get home since she knows about my smoking habit...i sigh and continue walking.
i eventually arrive at at my house and walk in. Its quiet they're probably asleep. I take my shoes off and quietly make my way up to my room. I quietly step into my room thinking i made it in safe when i see my little sister collei sitting on my bed looking pissed.
I look to my left and look down knowing what comes next.
"Where were you?"
She knows, she knows where i was why is she asking...
"I asked...where were you?"
"At school...i was just with the team..."
"Cyno im not stupid i know you were out smoking again!"
"If you knew than why the fuck did you ask!?"
"Because i know you would pull another one of your stupid excuses! Cyno you know how i feel about your smoking habit! You're lucky i haven't told mom and dad yet or else-"
"Or else what huh?! Im tired ok i just want to sleep! So get ou-" i suddenly feel her hand slap me across my face. I look back at her holding my cheek.
"What the fuck was that fo-" i notice tears flowing out of her eyes which makes me feel guilty for what i said.
"Well im sorry for caring about you..."
She rushes out of the room slamming the door behind her.
I sit down on my bed holding my face in my hands. Can this day get any worse...i suddenly feel tears stream down my face. Why am i so stupid...im hurting the people i care about...nilou...collei...why am i like this...i lay down curl up into a ball and cry until i eventually fall asleep.

• • • •

I wake up to the sound of my phone being blasted by messages. I pick up my phone to see who it was, it was dehya candace nilou and...tighnari?
I decide to read nilou's first.

Nilou:
Cyno i don't know whats gotten into you lately but it isn't you...
Me and my parents have both agreed that you and i probably need a break from eachother for awhile until we know whats going on with you...just know you don't need to hide from me just tell me if anything is bothering you ill be here to listen...

I cant ...i can't tell you...i don't know whats going on myself...i wish i could tell you i do...its just not the right time...
I couldn't bring myself to respond to her message and i just continue onto dehya and candace

Dehya:
Cyno what the fuck did you do?! Nilou called me in fucking tears! She told me how you abandoned her 2 times cyno you cant be doing that kind of shit especially to nilou shes patient yes but dont take it for granted and go off smoking with your little friends got it.

For some reason this pissed me off. She doesnt know anything about the situation why the fuck was she mad at me its bad enough that nilou is mad at me I don't need both her and candace on my trail 24/7 now too.

I move on from dehya to candace who just texted me to tell me to be more careful next time.

I exit the messages from Candace and look at tighnari's message.
I smile a bit to myself as i open the message which read

Tighnari:
Hey um is this cyno? Sorry to bother you so late i was wondering if you wanted to hang out with me and my friends today you know to get to know each other better, i did sign that friendship certificate of yours didnt i? 🤭

Honestly im glad i read his text message last it actually made me smile.

Cyno:
Sure! Where do we meet up?

Tighnari is typing....

Wow that was fast i say chuckling to myself.

Tighnari:
Wow i didnt expect you to say yes! Well no matter we're meeting up in front of the school in about an hour meet us there ok? Dont be late!

Cyno:
I wont i promise ;) cya in a bit nari

Tighnari:
Cyaaa

Well this was perfect timing i wont be allowed near nilou for a while and hanging out with tighnari will definitely keep my mind off of this whole shitbag situation i got myself into. I smile to myself as i go wash up and get dressed.
I tie my hair up in a messy pony tail and head out the door. I honestly can't wait to see tighnari again.

(Me from the future: i dont hate nilou 😭😭 i hope nobody thinks i do i actually love her)

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Ima be honest i kinda struggled writing this chapter 😭 i didnt really know how to write out what's happening so sorry if you couldn't understand. Im not too proud of this chapter 🥲 my personal favorite is the previous chapter and i already have an idea for the next one so i got pretty distracted while writing this so sorry again. 🥲 Tofu out 💕