i romanticize my past. i look back at small little good things that happened and use them to forget the things i don't want to remember. i make my past seem sunshine and rainbows. i smooth over the people who weren't good for me and only think of the good things that happened with them. maybe this is why its so hard for me to live in the presence. i romanticize my past and envision the perfect future. why would i ever want to leave my head? why would i try to leave the perfect world i've created? but... i need to. i need to see what is around because otherwise that future i've envisioned is never going to have the slightest possibility of happening. i have to much to do to spend time remembering only the good things in my life and never learning from my past. in order to move forward i can't look back at my past with rose colored glasses. i have to see it for what it was and be happy for all that it made me. my past can only get me so far. my future has to take me the rest of the way.
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