𝐃𝐫𝐝𝐫𝐚𝐩𝐞𝐭𝐨𝐌𝐚𝐧𝐢𝐚

𝟎𝟐𝟐

I woke up in bed sore with a face full of dry tears stuffed nose all mixed with a throbbing head there was also a bit of dry blood

Telling Namil about the situation was the right thing to do

But also a very hard thing to do

Long story short I wasted my time trying to get him help

I got up trying to get my stuff together I put my house slides on and grabbed the door knob pulling it

It didn't open I tried once again before realizing I was locked in from the outside

"OPEN THE FUCKING DOOR NAMIL" I screamed now getting aggravated

I heard Foot steps coming closer i stepped back a bit as the door opened and he came in

He closed the door behind himself leaving it cracked a bit

N: stop yelling
S: you should have left it unlocked
N: you should have listened to my simple rules

I sighed and put my head down palming my face before getting up to check on Zaire

I got him out of his bed and took him downstairs to eat

I made pancakes, eggs, and bacon for us

Namil came down when the food was done and made a plate for himself and sat down and ate

I didn't want anything at the moment so I just fed Zaire his food and got a drink

After breakfast I gave Zaire a bath and brushed his teeth

I then proceeded to get him dressed we weren't going anywhere at the moment so I just did his normal curly hair routine

Next step was getting myself ready I began to unclothe myself as i looked in the mirror

"Damn" I sighed to myself seeing everything from last night and before

"This isn't Love Skai.. love doesn't make you feel worthless or hurt love isn't unwanted abuse or disrespect it's not manipulative or supposed to me traumatizing" I thought

But we all know as much as I wanna leave I'll just keep running back everytime

As I let the water rinse off the soap from my body tears and loud cry's slipped out

I started trying to calm myself down so i wouldn't be heard

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"Tf you crying for" Namil said as I walked in the room "Nothing i was just watching a sad video" I lied

I grabbed some clothes to put on then started to walk out

"Where you going?" Namil
"To get Dressed" Skai
"You acting like I ain't see you before" Namil
"I just don't feel comfortable right now" Skai
"Bitch what?" Namil

I walked out the room and got dressed in a different room

I'm tired

I went to find Zaire and put his hoodie and sneakers on

We went downstairs and I got my purse my key and my shoes and hoodie on aswell

I unlocked the door and went to the fridge to get his sippy cup then gave it to him

We got in the car and drove off

I didn't really know where to go to be honest i just couldn't be there right now

It didn't last long however Namil called me millions of times

I finally answered the last one as I parked

N: where my son at Skai
S: with me
N: but where
S: he's safe with me that's all that matters
N: if he was safe with you he wo-
S: Namil you can shut the fuck up with that
N: you talking to me?
S: yes Nigga your acting like I knew that shit was gonna happen I blame myself enough as it is if you would have told me the reason you didn't want me to take him over there then I wouldn't have took him
N: ion gotta explain shit to you Skai
S: grow the fuck up
N: keep talking...
S: Namil I'm so fucking tired of your shit all you do is threaten me, Beat me, Degrade me when is it gonna end
N: bitch Who tf do you think your talking too word to my mother I'll beat you the fuck up and have you crying I don't know who's putting shit in your head making you bold in shi but they putting you in a hole you can't get out of
S: DO YOU HEAR YOURSELF NAMIL
N: STOP FUCKING YELLING
S: your just like him
N: like who?
S: like your dad the only difference is he beats kids and you beat me your doing all this shit to me and putting this Zaire thing in my face because it happened to you when you were younger you blame and throw everything from your childhood on me I wasn't the one that hurt you Nam- wait I didn't
N: you read my shit Skai, what happened to that bitch ass speech about privacy
S: I was looking for a lawyer
N: nah you was looking for something to throw in my face whenever we get into an argument
S: no I wasn't
N: you stay lying
S: I'm not
N: yea wtv

He said hanging up a lot of you probably hate me for I said to him just now

I actually kinda hate my self too it slipped out from anger but he's said worse to me

it doesn't matter two wrongs don't make it right I gotta apologize the way a mature adult would

Short update lol sorry