I hate you, but I love you

-Chapter 7-

Walking into class the next morning was scary. Monday morning I packed all my stuff I needed and got ready to leave. The presentation was the first period then I planned on leaving immediately after. My parents weren't much of a worry since they were never home so no one would file for a missing persons case.

As I walked into school and went to my locker I saw how crowded the hallway was. I had shown up a bit later than usual so everyone was rushing to class. I was planning on saying goodbye to one of my teachers before I left because she really tried to help me even though she knew nothing about what was going on. I thank her for that and will apologize for not talking to her about it.

I wrote her a letter because that's what I'm best at doing. It read:

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Dear Mrs. T ,

It is with deep sorrow and regret that I inform you I am leaving this god forsaken town to embark on a new journey. A new life that I may make better on my own. While I am very thankful for your grateful help, I fear that this world is not the one for me. I wish to thank you one last time for your wonderful help and empathy even though you knew nothing of what was going on. You were part of the reason I am still here but the other half of that has given up. Fluttered away leaving me half complete. I fear I may not be able to live on as such so instead I shall start over. Begin again and fix my past mistakes. Find a new love and a new hope. See the world in more than just black and white. Surely I'll find someone who cares enough to help me. I guess this is the end. Goodbye

Sincerely,

Aaliyah

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I take the letter and put it in a pale blue envelope. I stamped it shut because I liked how it looked. I stuff the envelope in my bag and hoist the bag onto my back. Normally it was light because I never brought much home but now it is heavy and a pain on my back.

My stomach grumbles and I decide to eat something so I don't pass out during my presentation. This marks the end of this life and the beginning of a new one. I write one last letter to my friend, the only one I actually have. Jessie

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Dear Jessie,

I wish for no worries for you and I hope you can forgive me for my mistakes. I've made some past decisions and the blood of my hands shows it. I regret little but the one thing I do regret is leaving you. I will never forget you and if you wish to find me before my goodbye then meet me at the bridge. I enjoy when all things come in a full circle so, we shall say our last goodbye at the same spot we said our first hello. Love you my dear, for this is my goodbye.

Love yours truly,

Aaliyah

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I see how sad this must be to get a letter from your friend telling you to meet her at the same place you first met. How scary it must be to know your friend is either running away or ending it all, but part of me thinks she'll show up and she'll stop me or she'll let me go. Either way I hope she's here and I hope she is not there.

~time skip to first period~

I walk into class prepared for everything. The teacher makes us present in the order of who submitted last. I was definitely close to the last to submit but there always was one jokester who submitted at 23:59. Which gave me a second.