Not What I Need

Chapter 6

Chapter 6

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<Hazelia's P.O.V.>

I have just woken up due to a pinch in my arm from a needle that a nurse has just given me.

I am in the worst pain possible. The nurse has just notified me that I just came out of surgery and I also had a miscarriage, which breaks my heart.

The nurse leaves the room with her head down.

Harry comes in the room and it seems as if he has been crying. I believe I know why.

I ask him heart breaking questions but I didn't know who to blame. At that moment, I didn't know what I want or what I need.

I then tell Harry that maybe it was for the best because I didn't remember him, but something inside me wants to. And in my heart, I know there is love for him there, but in my brain, there is nothing.

"I want to remember! I want to love you! But my brain doesn't know you therefore my heart never will." I snap at him and he just stands there shocked at what I just said.

"Just know that we CAN move past this. Trust me, you won't regret it. Regret us! We are engaged and in love no matter what your brain says, listen to your heart!" Harry stresses to me but I cannot even look him in the eyes.

"I'm trying but it's like there's a crossroads between my heart and my brain and I'm just forced to take the detour. The easy way, believing that I can never love someone I don't know!" I try to explain to him as I finally look into his glowing green eyes.

"Try! Give me a chance! Please?! I can prove it to you that we belong together. As soon as you get out of here and healthy, I am going to take you on a date." Harry insisted and I had no choice but to accept the offer.

***1 day later...

I'm feeling alot better. Until I realize that I have a date with Harry soon. I feel faint, but I don't.

I'm discharged out of the hospital, again, and arrive back at the mansion.

Where the rest of the guys have planned a 'Welcome Back' party for me. But it's supposed to be a surprise except I overheard Harry help with the planning over the phone. He was forced to tell me because he was caught, but told me to act surprised because it is the thought that counts.

"SURPRISE!!!!!" Screams everyone and I fake my best 'surprise' reaction. Rosa isn't fooled.

"Thank you guys so much for doing this but I'm hungry so where's the kitchen?" I ask with a smile on my face.

Rosa shows me into the kitchen and turns around to hug me.

"I'm glad that your happy I'm home, but I still need to breathe." I say to Rosa as she lets go. Sometimes that girl can forget how strong she really is.

"I'm just so upset that you...well you know." Rosa responds now with tears in her eyes. I knew exactly what she meant.

"Well everything is fine. I have already started to get over it." I lied. And Rosa saw right through it too.

"Why are you lying to me? I have been your best friend since, forever. I can tell when your lying and when your in love!" And she was right but this time is different.

"Well that's what Harry tried to tell me but I can't love someone who I don't remember. It's just not possible..." I say, dropping my face.

"Well there is something that I have kept from you. Harry was your first. And only." Rosa explained, "he loved you ever since Zayn showed him a picture of you and started sharing stories about you. You were always on his mind, all the time. Then, when you met them, he asked you out. You guys went on a few dates and fell in love with each other. He can only tell you what happens next because you didn't tell me anything except for the obvious and the proposal."

As soon as Rosa told me all of this, I almost immediately ran back into the living room. Tapping Harry on his shoulder and asking, "Can I talk to you please?"

He nods.

We walk to the back patio and we sit on the tree swing.

"Is it true? Were you my first?" I ask scared of the answer and he nods.

"Yes, I was your first and only. We were hopelessly in love with each other. Then, one night we were tired and didn't want to bother anyone by trying to find a ride home for you, so I offered for you to stay with me in my bed. One thing led to another and we ended up doing things that evidently got you pregnant. We found out 2 weeks later and I asked you to marry me. You actually said 'no' the first time but when I asked you again you said 'yes'. And I was so pleased that I didn't want to be away from you, so I asked if you would join us on tour, but you didn't want to accept unless Rosa could come along. I agreed and said that you guys would have so much fun-"

I cut Harry off, "I remembered that part, about inviting Rosa. But the rest I don't."

"And that's okay because that means you are getting better. Well, we still have our date soon so go get ready." Harry tells me but I'm not sure wether I still should go.

Harry moves his arm around my head and slides his hand down my spine to the small of my back. Sending sparks throughout my entire body, he then grabs me. He lifts me off of the swing and onto the ground. He pushes me into the back door and tells me, "You've got 1 hour because we leave at 7!"