Hi.
It's been a really long time.
This is probably a bad place to put a long explanation.
But I am discontinuing this. And I feel the need to explain myself extensively. So here is an extensive explanation. (It also turned into a vent kinda? and I started talking about unrelated stuff. so sorry about that ;-;)
I first found Wattpad when I was 12, I think? Maybe 13. I had just found out I was gay. I was being raised in a very strict Mormon household. Wattpad seemed like a perfect place to find other gay friends and talk about my experience and write fanfiction and do whatever the heck I wanted to.
What I did not realize is that I had not finished unlearning everything from the Mormon household. I knew that being gay wasn't wrong, but I still thought swearing was wrong. I thought anyone who struggled with addiction was a bad person and going to hell. I also had a very bad perception of venting and vent warnings and trigger warnings.
My wattpad account has been very toxic before. This is not a pity party, it is a statement of fact and an apology. I'm sorry to anyone who knew me in 2020.
Besides that, wattpad was nice because I could put fanfic on here whenever I wanted. I could also consume fanfic whenever I wanted. Which was nice because my parents hated the idea of fanfic and I loved it. I read a LOT of solangelo and lumity fics when I was active on here. Which brings me to the next thing about this whole situation, and the actual reason I'm discontinuing this.
Since I started this account, I've realized I have OSDD. If you don't know what that is, the most simplified version of it is multiple people, all with their own identities and ideas and thoughts, living in one body. It's actually super fascinating and fun to research but that's not the point. The point is, we get introjects a lot. People in the body based off of an already existing character or person.
Anyway. We've got an Amity. I stopped writing this around April because I thought I was going to get an Amity but despite avoiding it for months, I re-hyperfixated on Owl House at the same time as the host of the system violently fakeclaimed themself for multiple months so. now we have an Amity alter. That was fun.
I just remembered my ex follows this account. Hope they don't see this lol anyway
My point here. Amity is, understandably, uncomfortable with fanfiction about her. Especially because she actually did start dating Luz in her memories and now they'll never see her again. I would also be uncomfortable and kind of intimidated. I am lucky that every single fictive in the system doesn't hate the fanific writers. But yeah!! I am still proud of this fic and think it was pretty fun to write while it lasted.
So yeah!! I'm not super active on here (or active at all) anymore but if we used to be close and you don't hate me feel free to give me your tiktok or something cuz I am active some places 😭😭
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What Really Matters (Lumity AU)
FanficDISCONTINUED Amity just wants to make her parents proud, but it gets harder by the day. If she gets 99% on a test, well, she just could have done better. By ninth grade, she is nothing short of perfect. She gets only perfect scores and is always the...
