Dimensions Apart (Wangxian)

Every End is a New Beginning

~Modern AU~

"Sixteen years." A melodious voice thick with pain and emotions floated with the cool breeze as a beautiful broken angel, a boy with tears streaming down his face, watched the colours of the setting sun reflected in the waves of the blue sea, lost in his thoughts.

'I liked you, admired you, fancied you, worshipped you, revolved around you, believed you, trusted you, lov-loved you and married you..only to stand here today, again, waiting for you just like the day we first met.

I was so excited when mom and dad told me that I'll be meeting my new friend. This park, this seat at the edge of the cliff, the setting sun colouring the sky with hues of red, orange, yellow, blue, purple and pink. Cool winter breeze filled with the fragrance of jasmine and the mysterious beauty of the deep blue sea. Everything here reminds me of that day whose memories are still fresh in my mind as if it was just yesterday when I saw you, walking towards me, staring at me with those intense golden eyes with an emotionless face.

How I wish I knew it wasn't just your face but also your heart.

That three-year-old me, who had never seen a child look so serious, although you were three years older than me, took it upon myself to fill your life with happiness and make you smile.

I wish I knew it was never my place, to begin with.

Time passed, seasons changed, and our meetings continued but even after trying everything, you neither talked to me nor smiled.

Even after your uncle..our uncle brought me to live together with you and Xichen ge when I lost my parents, you were still the same. I was alone. I was scared. I needed you, wanted to hug you and cry my heart out but you never even spared me a glance.

I would've been fine if you continued to be indifferent to me. I never did anything wrong to you. I only ever craved your attention, your care, your love...but I never asked you for it. I had finally accepted that you just didn't like me and I was fine with it then why?!..

Why did you suddenly have to be so good to me? Why did you pretend to be my best friend, my lover and even my husband only to betray me?

I knew you were cheating on me. I saw you with her several times when you said you were busy in meetings and couldn't come home.

If you didn't love me then why did you even marry me? Why did you make love with me whenever you stayed the night? Was I just a hole, a substitute to release your desires on those nights when you couldn't be with her?

You destroyed me. Shattered my heart every single time whenever you broke my trust. I wanted to confront you, shout at you and ask you why you treated me like that. I was so disturbed that even our colleagues asked me to take a day off seeing my miserable condition. Oh! how I wish I'd never come home that day.

Sounds of you making love with your girlfriend in our bedroom echoed throughout our home.

Your words, those secrets, the reason why you acted so well in front of me for so many years, even though I wanted to know so badly, I really wish I'd never heard. Your fake love, false care and concern to mask your hatred, disgust, and betrayal only to obtain my property..really made my whole existence a joke.

If only you had asked me once, I would have given it to you without any hesitation. If only you knew you were everything to me.

To think that I once thought of you as my soulmate...

Today is our six-month marriage anniversary and as always, I'll give you the best gift of your life. My last effort, to bring a smile on your face before...leaving you forever.