HTTYD The Hidden World: Hiccup x Reader

Thoughts

(Y/N)'s P.O.V.

I look out to the sea, hearing the distant roaring of dragons from the village. I watch the waves as they wash the shore of the sandy beach as I sit with my arms resting on my knees. This place is where I would come whenever I need alone time. I feel a nudge against my back and look to see Twilight look up at me with concern. I give her a soft smile and scratch her chin a little. She purrs and curls around me. "Thanks, girl."

I lean back and rest on Twilight as I go back to watching the sea. I hear some squawking and look to my left as I see Stormfly land nearby. Astrid gets off her and I sit up as Twilight goes to play with Stormfly. "What are you doing here, Astrid?" I ask her. She walks over and sits next to me, crossing her legs, "Is it so wrong to want to check on my best friend?" She rebuttals.

I give her a skeptical look. "Okay, I wanted to check on you. You got me worried when you left." She gives in. I give her a thankful look. "I'm fine." I assure her. She gave me a skeptical look, "Look, I don't want to push my luck but something is definitely bothering you." She states. I avoid looking at her as I divert my gaze to the water.

I remained silent. I didn't want to get Astrid involved in my problems. I mean, it's not that I don't want to marry Hiccup, it's just that..... it's not the right time. I jump a little as I feel something on my shoulder and look to see Astrid, looking at me with concern. "Hey, if there's something on your mind, you can tell me. I'll keep my mouth shut." She tells me, giving a soft smile.

I look at the sand in thought then close my eyes and take a deep breathe. I open my eyes and look to the sea. "Well, I'm not against marrying Hiccup. It's just that, we've been bringing back a lot of dragons and we don't have that much space. Along with trappers  still out there, I just want to resolve all this before we make things official and-" "(Y/N)." Astrid interrupts me. "That's not what's bothering you, is it?" No.

I should have known Astrid would see through me. I stop my rambling as I avoid eye contact with her. "I swear I won't judge you. But, does this have something to do with what happened to your parents?" She asks. I wanted to deny it, but she's right. I started coming here some time after my parents died. It's been a long while since I've been here.

"Okay, yes." I admit. "If Hiccup and I got married and had kids, what if we..... died?" I ask her. I cross my arms and rest my head on them. "If something happened to us, then that would mean the kids would be losing their parents. I don't....want them....to go through.....what I did." I choked out, feeling myself tear up.

It was quiet. I felt Twilight rub against me to provide some comfort. I hear some movement and feel hands grab my face and lift it up and see Astrid with a stern look. "(Y/N), listen to me. You are one of the strongest people I have ever met. I see you like a sister and want the best for you. I want you to be happy." She says. She removes her hands from my face and puts them on her waist. "Do you love Hiccup?" She asks suddenly. "Huh?" "I said, do you love Hiccup?" She repeats. "Of course, I do." I answer, a little confused why she'd asking me this. "How much do you love him?" "With every ounce of my being-Astrid, what are you getting at?" I ask her.

"Do you want Hiccup to be killed?" "What? No!" "Do you want to be killed?" "No." "Do you want to be there for your kids?" "Yes!" "Then why were you saying that stuff if you love Hiccup so much?" "I'M SCARED! OKAY!?!?" I snapped. I pant as I get onto my knees. I didn't even realize how tensed as I was. I pant and look at Astrid, who gives me a sympathetic look. She moves her hands to place them on her knees.

"And it's okay to be scared. But you need to understand that things are different now. What happened then won't happen unless you let it." She says. I look down in thought of what she said. "You fight with passion, you fight for love. And that is what makes you such a formidable warrior. An incredible person." She wraps her arms around me to hug me tightly.