Candy Stars || Ruscan ]

Part 7

It had been a little over a week since Canada had gotten Russias name, and since then he had not stopped trying to find the country every single free second he got.

He wasn't obsessed. But just so damn curious. From what he'd seen Russia seemed mean, and certainly very aggressive sure. But there was something so fascinating as to why he acted that way that Canada was just dying to know.

But today he was busy with work. Today he had to pose with these cookies in some slutty little bakers getup so a well known cookie company could get some cash. Typical for the holiday times.

But recently he had been so distracted that it seemed to be affecting his work.. and others had noticed that. Just yesterday he was caught staring off to space in the bathroom mirror and had to be smacked in the back of the head to pull him out of it. Needless to say it was beyond embarrassing and he had made sure to put extra effort into the day after that.

And right now, as he was being driven to work by Finland of course as he was staring out the window. Finland had noticed, and had tried to catch the red and white countries attention by saying their name but no matter what he said Canada seemed to be so deep in his thoughts that nothing would really pull him out of them..

Well, until Finland had to slam on his brakes at a sudden red light and Canada was tossed forward into the back of the passenger seat.

"OW- what the actual fuck Fi-" Canada stopped himself from speaking before he could say anything rude. Reminding himself that it wasn't Finland's fault, but his for not paying attention and for not putting his seatbelt on.

"I- uh- what happened?" He asked calmly this time. "Damn red light, came on all of a sudden and I had to slam on my brakes so I wouldn't run into the car in front of us."

Canada rolled his eyes and let out a low, upset growl. "If it came on so suddenly I would've just passed the guy in front, probably some dumbass who thinks running a red light once is gonna get him killed." Canada had never suggested doing anything dangerous on the road, or insulted a person like that. It also almost seemed as though he hadn't really understood what Finland was saying..

That wasn't like him at all. So Finland just uncomfortably looked forward and said nothing as he started driving again. He knew something was up, and he thought it might have to do with that Russia guy. He just hoped Canada wasn't throwing himself into anything potentially dangerous.. he hardly knew that country. Plus, from what Finland saw they definitely weren't a nice person.

And there was also the fact that if they did get closer it would affect Canadas career.. without a doubt.

After a few seconds of silence Canada reached forward, turning on the radio and turning it up as high as he could handle without getting a headache.

Then, for the rest of the ride he let himself get lost in his thoughts again.

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Work today had been even worse than any previous day, he had already caught himself staring off into nothing 3 times in just the first hour and the others had obviously noticed this odd behavior.

He had been asked if he was sick, or if he needed a day or two off to which he lied and said yes, that he was sick and would love a few days off. He never lied. That wasn't like him. He wasn't a liar.

And that's why everyone believed him so easily, telling him to take care and get well soon before sending him home with a few loving wishes. Finland was surprised that he had to drive the other home so early as well.

He hoped Canada was really sick.. not because he wanted the other to be sick, but because he didn't want them to be lying. He just didn't want Canada to become a completely different person all over someone he never actually met..

Or at least he thought that was why, of course.

... "Nada?" This time Canada wasn't thinking about Russia, so he heard the other say his name. "Yea? What is it Fin?" Finland exhaled before asking what was on his mind. "Is this- all this- the leaving work, the being distracted, and the weird personality change. Is this about that Russia guy? I- I don't want you to hurt yourself Nada I thi-" he was cut off as Canada broke into an open sob.

"YES-! I- I think something must be wrong- I've never lied to anyone and I almost lashed out at you too!- but- it has nothing to do with Russia. I just wanna be his friend- maybe it's- maybe I'm actually sick. Or maybe I'm just tired- maybe I need to-"

"Nada, please just tell me the truth-" Canadas mood changes completely and he hissed loudly at the other, yelling at them. "I AM TELLING THE TRUTH!- this has nothing to do with Russia. I'm fucking 24 and 24 year olds have fucking problems. Am I not allowed to be sad, or distracted or sick without it being someone else's fault?? Stop trying to say I love him, or have a dumbass crush on him, or that he's causing me to be sick- I haven't even seen him since I got his name. Fuck. Stop blaming other people on everything."

Finland paused "It's- my fault?" Canadas eyes widened and he seemed to cool down a bit. "No-! You haven't done anything I-" Finland interrupted him. "Well the way you said it certainly sounded like I did something wrong."

"I- no no Fin- you haven't done anything wrong maybe I- maybe I just need some time to myself.." Canada said, lifting his legs up and hugging his knees to his chest before gently resting his chin on them.

Finland paused, thinking of what to say. "Yea.. maybe you do."

And the rest of the ride was silent, Canada was lost deep in thought again but this time his thought weren't about Russia...

They were about if he himself was going to be ok.

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Edited 1 time on 11/22/2022 to fix mistakes.