Distorted Episodes

Trust

True to one's heart I am sure
Perhaps you'd like to tell me to re-assure
But no the doubts they slide right in
There is no surprise, the words cut thin
I see through the transparent lies
Wish you'd tell me the reason why
I feel lost by myself
Wishing for someone to help
Telling people who I am
Walking in a desert land
Lost in the thoughts I have yet to hide
Yet you still wonder why I don't try
Yet everyone finds some way to hurt me the most
All those words washed off across the coast
The waves they flow, the water is cold
I feel lost and all alone
I sit silent observing
And slowly learning
As I take the bullets in so deep
As I try my best not to weep
Then I just stare at you into your eyes
Seeing your so thought innocence, oh how I am blind
So I go and love like I have always been
Losing or not it's never a win
Yet I can't ever get mad
But I hope you're glad
You look forward to making things right
But chances, I've lost count of a thousand times
No matter the loop I hope to be
There when no one else can see
Despite how much they hurt me
The wounds were worth the fall
Just so I could give it all
Through all this I try to smile
With hope that the pain stops for a while