Distorted Episodes

Lonely

Oh look things work out well
Don't you think your life has turned out just swell?
But would you look at that
All you thought that was going to stay is right back
Why is pain so easy now?
Not to cope with but just to be around
It's like your new best friend
That you're stuck with till the end
Oh how you wonder, why must people treat you like this?
How on earth can you ever fight this?
Your love fades away
As insecurities begin to play
Your friends forget and laugh on
As their life is happier more
You patiently wait for a change
Just to realize it's back to being the same
Such temporary happiness at a grasp
Why can't life be an easy map?
Seconds turn into hours
As your conscious begins to turn sour
You watched as excuses progress
Watching the lies rest
You bottle it up and act like you're fine
But when the realization hits you
You know you can't turn back time
Oh how it hurts too
All i wanted was to be loved
Not forgotten in the dust
People fake so much more
How can i ever be sure?
I spent so much to give
Not knowing if dying mattered still
People only care when you leave
I beg to god, oh set me free
The pain, the fall
I can take it all
But the breaks, the wounds
They are bound to me
It's hard to breathe
I can't take it anymore
I truly am not even sure
But no matter what i feel now
It's too late
People only see my mistakes
What option do i take?
But sadly
I'm just feeling lonely