Him and I ✓

24. So close yet so far - pt.1

Yoongi was speechless. The girl, he hates the most was going to stay in his room from now on. Hell no! "No, she won't. Doesn't she has her own room?" He said narrowing his eyes. "Eomma please!" Y/N was going to say something but stopped as "Eomma is talking." She sighed, thinking Yoongi's gonna hate her more. "Yoongi, she is your wife then why would she sleep in another room?"

"For the last time eomma, she's not my wife. Is that even a marriage?" Yoongi said well kinda shouted. "Photos, papers say otherwise. Whole world knows you're freaking married to this girl." She shouted back. Yoongi took a deep breath to calm his nerves. "I was drunk eomma."

"So was she. Don't you blame her Min Yoongi. You're equally guilty." Yoongi was so angry at himself. Why did he go for a walk with her in the first place? "Yoongi, listen to me. I know you're mad at her but she didn't do it on purpose and you know it more than anyone." Yoongi looked away. "Consider it or not she's your wife and I believe you'll give her the respect she deserves. I didn't raise you to be an asshole." Again he didn't say anything.

"Do it for me. Please!" With that his mother left after patting his shoulder and hugging Y/N. After her disappearance Yoongi went towards the door and slammed it. She flinched by the sound. She could see how much angry he was. After locking the door he sighed and turned towards her. He was staring into her eyes while stepping closer to her. Y/N was confused and scared. She stepped back as Yoongi kept coming closer and closer until her back hit the wall. "Yoongi what-"

"Listen Y/N, maybe you're my wife outside to everyone but to me you're no one. Understand? No one. You mean nothing to me." Every words broke her heart into pieces. No one? Tears rolled down her cheeks. "Am I not your friend Yoongi?" She asked. Yoongi laughed sarcastically. "Friend? What kind of friend ruins their friend's life? You were never my friend Y/N or else you would never do that to me."

"I was drunk Yoongi. I was not in the right mind. I never meant to do this." Y/N said feeling worst. "You did enough Y/N now I'm miserable." He turned back and was going to leave but then "Did you forget everything we had? Did you forget about that night?" Her voice cracked. Yoongi went silent for few minutes then said, "There's nothing to remember." With that he was going to the bed but she grabbed his hand. Yoongi glanced at the hand then at her. Immediately he snatched his hand from her grip. "Don't touch me. How dare you!" He yelled, glaring at her. "I-"

"Don't come near me ever again or else it won't be good for you and also don't try to talk to me. I hate you. Just stay the hell away from me." With that he got into the bed and dimmed the lights off as if she wasn't there, crying silently.

Y/N wiped her eyes and laid down on the couch, facing another side of Yoongi. Why God why? Why am I so messed up? I bring everyone down with me and it's always my close ones. She thought, crying silently until she fell asleep.

Next morning when she woke up she saw Yoongi was nowhere in the room. Maybe he's in bathroom? She wasn't sure whether to go search for him since Yoongi made it clear last night that he didn't want to be near her but she couldn't help herself from checking the bathroom. No one was there. He already left. Didn't he? She took a deep breath and went to her own room to freshen up.

In her room, she saw Cia and Yoongi's mom. "Eomma? Cia? What are you guys doing?" She asked in confusion. "Good morning to you too. We're packing your stuffs since you're going to stay in Yoongi oppa's room." Cia said casually. What the hell? "Eomma!" The old woman hummed in response. "Your son-"

"Don't you trust your eomma?" Y/N was interrupted by that question. She sighed and nodded. "Then don't say anything and have faith." Before Y/N could say anything Mrs. Min was out of her eyesite. "Don't worry he'll come around." Y/N only laughed causing Cia frown. "If only it was easy. I don't know why y'all are trying so hard to get us together but I know it's never gonna happen. I'm sick of everything. I'm sick of myself." With that she walked away leaving Cia alone with her thoughts.

Meanwhile Y/N went to the kitchen and started preparing breakfast. She didn't know what she was feeling. Sad because Yoongi's never gonna forgive her, angry at herself because she lost control, heartbroken cause Yoongi doesn't see her in that way she wants him to see, pissed cause everyone was trying to get them together somehow like forcing Yoongi to accept her, tired cause she always let down those persons who are close to her. What should I do? Should I just leave? Does my leaving will make this situation better? I don't know anymore.

"Y/N, are you okay?" She snapped out of her thoughts as Leona approached from behind. "Oh! I'm fine unnie. Don't worry." She said, smiling a bit. Leona was going to say something but she interrupted her by saying, "I'm done with breakfast. Call everyone for me please." With that Y/N walked away from there.

Following night

Y/N's been worried about Yoongi since noon because she didn't know where he is. Even the boys didn't know. They said, after practice they didn't see him. They even went to his studio but he wasn't there. Though they told her, "Don't worry nini. He must be in his friend's place. He"ll be back soon." Still she couldn't control herself from worrying about him.

She didn't know why she was feeling like this. It's not the first time that Yoongi was out of the house for the whole day but today it's different. Right now it was 2 in midnight. She tried to sleep but couldn't. The unknown feeling just won't go away. So she was waiting in the living room. Where are you Yoongi? Thirty minutes later the door bell rang. Y/N was wide awake so immediately ran to open the door.

When she opened the door her eyes widened in shock. It was Yoongi with his bodyguard. "What happened to him? Is he okay?" She asked worriedly to Yoongi's bodyguard. "Ma'am he drank too much. I tried to stop him but he didn't listen to me." Y/N took a deep breath. Yoongi was barely standing. He couldn't even open his eyes properly and also he was mumbling something which was inaudible. "Thank you for bringing him home. You can go now." The bodyguard nodded and left Yoongi to her.

After closing the door Y/N held him to give him support as he was limping. "Umm let go off me. I can walk by myself." She didn't listen to him. She was still holding him. "Yah! Didn't I tell you not to touch me?" She looked at him as Yoongi snatched himself from her. They stared at each other for few minutes then all of a sudden Yoongi started laughing. She sighed and grabbed his hand, walking towards the bedroom. This time he didn't snatch his hand away. He just kept giggling like a kid.

After getting inside the bedroom, in the blink of an eye Y/N was pinned down against the bed while Yoongi hovered over her. "You just can't stay away from me. Can you?" He chuckled seeing her widened eyes. Her heart was hammering as if it was going to come out from the rib cage. Yoongi kept staring at her and giggling. Then suddenly Yoongi leaned in "Yoongi you're drunk." Yoongi didn't listen. He leaned in closer and closer until Y/N could feel his hot breath in her neck as he nuzzled his nose.

Her heart skipped a beat, breath hitched by his action. She was spellbound. She closed her eyes shut, clutching the bed sheet. "Mmm you smell nice." His raspy drunken voice made her hypnotized. She was like a statue. "Y-Yoongi p-please." Yoongi why are you doing this to me?Is this how you're going to punish me? She snapped out of her thoughts by the sound of snore. Yoongi fell asleep on her.

She took a deep breath and stroked his hair as Yoongi literally fell asleep on top of her. You're so close yet so far. After staying like that for a few minutes Y/N moved his body from her since it wasn't impossible for her to move him as he wasn't that heavy. She took off his shoes and jacket. She touched his forehead as she felt his body was kinda hot. So she decided to wash his body and face not the whole body though. So she did. It wasn't hard to do so. After that she covered him with blanket and about to leave but then all of a sudden he grabbed her hand and said,

"Stay with me."