Him and I ✓

32. Gone

I messed up. I fucked up real bad. This is something Yoongi hates about himself. He acknowledges his fault when the damages are already done."Why am I so difficult? UGHHH!" He looked himself in the mirror before punching it. He wasn't in himself. He broke everything which came handy. Due to all the sounds of breaking things the rest of them came running to his room. "What are you doing Yoongi hyung? Stop!" Namjoon said trying to calm him down by back hugging him. The others were shocked at the same time confused to see him like this.

He turned back to Namjoon. "What happened?" Yoongi couldn't control himself from crying. Namjoon immediately hugged him. His heart ached to see his best friend cry. The others shared glances with each other. They knew something must be happened and it was terrible when Yoongi's acting like this. "Oppa don't cry or else chunky's gonna cry too."

Wiping his eyes, Yoongi pulled away from Namjoon and looked at Cia sadly. "Why are you sad?" He didn't respond to her. "By the way did Y/N call you? I swear to God when she comes back I'll beat the shit out of her." Cia said with a pout. "Yoongi say something. Why are you silent?" Seokjin said while the others waited for the answer. What I'm gonna say to them? To chunky? "Hyung where is she? Answer us."

"G-gone." Yoongi said, not looking at them. How can he when he's the reason behind this? "Where do you mean by gone?" Yoongi handed the letter. "She's gone. Far away from us. Far away from me." Cia snatched the letter from Seokjin and started reading it. Meanwhile "Hyung why? Did something happen at the party?" Hoseok asked. Having a sigh Yoongi started telling them everything.

After hearing everything the others went silent. They didn't know what to say. However Yoongi could say they were hurt and disappointed. Everyone pretty much talked during the conversation but only Cia was silent. She was standing like a statue, holding the letter close as if it was Y/N. "Why Min Yoongi?" Cia asked breaking through the silence.

Yoongi was quite shocked to hear his full name from his Chunky. There was a stern expression in her face which he never saw before. "Chunky I-" Cia grabbed Yoongi's collar, surprising everyone. "I promised her I wouldn't let her hurt by anyone but you? How can you do this? You were the only person she loved though she denied it but I always knew how much she loved you. Out of all the people you had to break her heart? Couldn't you trust her just for once?" Tears continued to stream down her face.

"She never felt loved in her life. Never got to know what family is. We were her only family and you took that away. You took my best friend away. WHY?" Yoongi's eyes got teary and so were the others'. It was the first time they saw her in this form. "You don't know how much she suffered everyday for you when you thought you were the only one suffering. You treated her like shit but all she did was loving you."

"Jagi calm down please." Jimin stepped forward to coax her but she ignored her husband. "Why are you so selfish? I'll never forgive you. I'll-"

"CIA!" She fainted.

Sometimes later...

Everyone gathered around Cia who was being examined by their personal doctor. She was awake but she was quiet, staring at the wall blankly. Everyone was so worried. "Jiminie she'll be fine." Hoseok comforted the younger. At that moment "Mr. Park." Jimin's looked at the doctor. His heart was racing, scared that something's definitely wrong. "You're going to be father. She's four weeks pregnant."

Cia closed her eyes as tears rolled down her cheeks at the word pregnant. Jimin froze at his place. The rest of them were shocked. "W-what? Really?" Jimin stuttered feeling his own tears coming out. The doctor nodded. "Take care of her." With that the doctor left. Jimin immediately went to Cia and hugged her. "Did you hear that? We're going to be parents." He said with excitement but Cia didn't respond. Jimin felt sad when he saw Cia was crying. He understood why.

The others congratulated them. Even though it was a good news, the time was not right. Y/N's disappearance affected Cia the most. She was more of a sister than her best friend. Yoongi tried to talk to Cia but she looked away. She was hurt and disappointed with him. Yoongi sighed and walked away from the room, giving the others space.

Following evening Yoongi was in his room. He had locked himself up from the morning. Right now he's thinking about Y/N while switching off and on the table lamp. He looked at his bruised knuckles. He let out a chuckle thinking she would've scolded him like she did before when he sprained his ankle. If only you were here.

He had read her letter for so many times that he lost its counts. One more thing Y/N left for him. It was a ring of her mom which she used as a locket. He still remembered that day when he asked her about this.

"Why do you always wear this? You never take this off."

"It's special. This is a sign of love and importance."

"How so?"

"This is my mom's. She used to say that I was the most important person in her life and she loved me the most and will love me forever. That's why she gave it to me."

A tear slipped from his eyes. You love me that much? Why can't I realise it sooner? I'm fucking worst, the worst son, the worst husband, the worst brother, the worst human being. He wiped his eyes. I'll find you Y/N. I promise!

Next day Yoongi was in his room when Namjoon and Hoseok came with breakfast. Namjoon and Hoseok glanced at each other. Looked like Yoongi was going somewhere. "Not in the mood for breakfast. Please take it away." Both of his dongsaengs ignored him. "We don't care hyung. You've not eaten anything since yesterday."

"I won't die Joon if I starve for a day." Yoongi said. "Can you stop being stubborn hyung? Look what you've done. Everything became a mess. Our chunky is like this because of you. Why-" Hoseok paused as Namjoon put his on the older's shoulder. Hoseok sighed before apologising. "Sorry hyung."

"It's ok hobi. You're not wrong anyway." Yoongi said looking down before agreeing to eat something. The trio had a conversation while Yoongi ate. "Where are you going hyung?" Namjoon asked. Yoongi looked at him and said, "Somewhere. I need to do something before I start looking for her." The eldest said. "Let me come with you."

"You don't have to Joon-ah. I'm the reason of this mess so it would be better if I fix it alone." Namjoon and Hoseok looked at him in disbelief. "We're family hyung. You're not alone." Hoseok said. "Yeah though you really screwed up but that doesn't mean we'll let you to do everything on your own. We promised each other to stay by each other's side whatever the situation is."

Yoongi sighed. Damn this guys! Always know what to say to convince me. "Fine you can come with me." After Yoongi was done with eating, the trio went out. They got inside the car. Yoongi was driving. Namjoon and Hoseok didn't know where they were going but they could guess.

At first Yoongi went to the place where the party was held. He decided to check the CCTV footage. The security knew him so it wasn't hard to find them. When he saw how Seonhwa was touching Y/N, he felt rage. His blood boiled. He clenched his fist when he saw Seonhwa buried his face in her and also the bruise he gave her. That means she was telling the truth. Yoongi was so angry.

Namjoon and Hoseok were waiting outside. Though they wanted to go inside with him but Yoongi stopped them. After a while they saw Yoongi coming out of the building. He looked pissed. Namjoon and Hoseok asked him what happened but he was quiet. Getting inside, Yoongi didn't waste one more second. His hand was aching to break someone's face. "Where are we going now?"

"At Seonhwa's."