Everything happens a first time -elmax-

First thought

The other days were just the same, they have boring class and they all sit together for lunch break. The other breaks Max isn't joining them. Nothing hasn't really changed, expect for this one thing. El is having those weird thoughts. Everytime Max and Will are close, she's jealous. She's not jealous on Max but on Will. She wished she was that close with Max. She doesn't know why. 'It's probably because she's a girl to' she keeps telling herself. She never had girls as friends, only boys. Max seems like a awesome friend. It's Friday night, El has nothing to do. She decided to go to Will's house. It's only a half hour with the bike so she went with her bike.

She arrived at his house, their was no car. She was hoping so hard Will was home. She knocks at the door, waiting in dead silence. No-one opened the door, she wanted to go home again when Will suddenly opened the door. 'El, hey, I'm sorry I was showering, come in' Will said. She came inside and they both sat at the table. Right over eachother.

E: Will i wanna talk to you.

W: Sounds serious, everything okay?

E: It is serious.

W: Oh okay, I'm listening.

E: So school only has been starting for a week now and you and Max became so close on a short time and i-

W: Hey don't worry, I know what you gonna say. Don't worry you'll always be my number one.

E: No Will it's not wh-.. it's just.. I'm jealous bu-

W: Don't be jealous El, you're like my sister. If you wanna hang out or something, I'll do that immediately.

E: No Will it's no-

W: No I get it.

E: Stop interrupting me! I'm not jealous on Max, I'm jealous on you! You're just so close with Max, I see you guys together and sometimes I wish.. i was you...

W: Why didn't you say anything. I can help you guys, but first you're going to dump Mike.

E: Wait what, no Will. I'm just jealous because I've never had girls as friends.. at least that's what i keep telling myself.

W: This conversation isn't about Max is it. It's about your sexuality isn't it?

E: I honestly don't even know why I'm here.

W: You're here because you know you can trust me. It's okay to question your sexuality.

E: It's not I'm with Mike

W: Forget Mike in this conversation. You can't decide it. Some people start thinking about it at a very young age, some at an old age and people around our age.

E: Should i tell Mike about this?

W: No not yet, only when you're sure.. and El.. if you're going to confess about your sexuality, i am too. I don't want you to do that alone, it's scary.

E: You're the best Will.

W: I know i am. So tell me when did you first catch those thoughts.

E: I'd never thought about it, but I think it all started...

W: When you saw Max?

E: ...how did you know..?

'She's gorgeous, and I saw you staring at her. Multiple times, and when you stare at her you got this certain look in your eyes. I'm not saying you're crushing on her, I just knew it was more then a straight girl staring at a pretty girl' Will giggles.

'Shut up' el smiles back. 'Now be serious again Will'

E: How do I know what I am?

W: Okay, let me tell you something. The first time i met Mike i was 8 years old. He asked me if i wanted to be his friend, I said yes. I always thought Mike was handsome. He was tall, had this pretty hair, he was overprotective. He was my best friend. I always felt something was different with Mike. I didn't knew what it was. When i turned 10 i just knew it. All that time, I've been inlove with Mike Wheeler. I don't know how I figured out. It's not like I woke up one day and said 'I'm inlove with Mike Wheeler' no it wasn't like that. I just imagined what if I was more than just his friend. We were laying on the grass together, only me and him. We were looking at the stars. He was talking to me, but I couldn't hear him. I was just so hard staring at him and their was this one sentence in my head 'what if I'd give him a kiss on his pretty lips' I was 10 and really shy, I'd never dared to do it. I wanted to tell him next year but the-