With Him

Chapter Six

^ Tyler's car ^

Tyler's P.O.V

"We're having spaghetti for dinner tonight, your favorite" Greyson says as I get in his car, "Second favorite" I correct him with a smile. "Ah yes, second favorite, Mac n' Cheese is your all time favorite" he says as we pull off.

It's Wednesday night, I went through my first week of school without any break downs (probably because it wasn't a full week lets be honest), I still hate Mr. Green, every day I go in and he tries to have a full blown conversation with me.

I apologized to Dallas about blowing up at him, and did much better with my eating the next day. Greyson also made me share my Dexcom will him again so he can monitor me, I don't mind it I just hope he doesn't get onto me every time it gets a little below normal.

Mark's Moters the car place that has been working on my car called me today after school and told me I'll be able to pick up my car tomorrow at 11. I'm so excited I miss my car i'll be able to take myself to school now, which not that riding with Addison was a bad thing I just like being by myself than being around others.

"I know I ask you this everyday but, any friends?" ugh I hate this stop light. Everyday when Greyson picks me up from work and we get caught at this stop light he asks the same question.

"Greyson" I sigh, "You know the answer, I don't want to make friends".

"But I don't see why" he pushes the issue, "Friends want to hug, and touch, and talk, and go out, and do social things, all things I hate remember".

"Fine, what about the next question. Anyone caught your eye" "No, I don't understand relationships why would you want someone who again touches you, holds you, wants to talk all the time, take you places, KISS YOU, no, ew" I have always seen people in relationships and wonder why they are like gross no.

"Well first of all, even if you get in a relationship there will be no kissing understand, kissing leads to sex, and sex leads to babies" be says looking over at me.

"Greyson that's DISCUSTING, I don't wanna talk about sex with you, ew" why would he bring that up.

"Well good, then don't be having it. And second don't you want to love someone and have someone love you back".

I don't get love, like what is it how can one feel that.

We pull up to the house and I immediately get out of the car before he starts talking about sex again. Who wants to talk about that with their brother or anyone for that matter.

Dinner is going by with no issues, I'm almost done with my plate and I hear whispering.

"Tyler do you know?" Brooklyn asks when I look up, "K-know what" what are they knowing everyone's being weird.

"So over the breaks it gets really crazy here, everyone's friends are over like everyday and some stay the night" Addison says after no one says anything.

That's gonna be a lot of people, I mean anymore than what's here now is too many.

"So it's gonna be really chaotic tomorrow, are you gonna be okay" Brooklyn says sounding concerned.

"Um I should be" I get why they're worried, I might get overstimulated and snap, say rude things at people or have a panic attack out of the chaos in the house.

But I've kinda planned it out, I can bleach my hair tomorrow, then dye it Friday. That'll keep me in the bathroom for two days away from everyone, and I could stay in the room hopefully everyone will be around the house.

I finish my plate and go to the kitchen, "Are you sure you'll be okay?" Daniel says as I'm putting it in the sink.

"Yeah I think so" I say and check my number, 467, I go to the medical drawer and get out a alcohol wipe and a needle and my insulin then remember.