KARMA (August Alsina)

Girl Talk{28}

Comment/Vote!!!!!!! (Published 5/15/2015)

Natasha's POV

It's been a week since my last date with August and he has me so confused about my feelings for him. I know that I feel something for him but I also know that consequences come with feelings; so I still have my guard up. We haven't seen each other since our date but he has been calling and texting me, checking for me.

I heard a knock on the door and went to open it, knowing who it was. Sky walked in, neither one of us greeting each other. Every since our little episode at August house, she's been keeping her distance.

"You want a drink?" I asked her, pouring one for myself.

She ignored me as I walked over to the couch with my glass.

"Sky, I know how this shìt look sis. Did you-"

"No I haven't said shit to nobody. I ain't no snitch."

"That's not what I was going to ask you. That never crossed my mind." I sipped my drink.

I saw that she was getting impatient as I battled with myself whether or not I would do this.

"Look, why am I here? I ain't come here to watch you get drunk and I damn sure didn't come to chill." She spat.

"Oh we on that level now?" I looked at her confusingly.

"You funny as hell right now." She chuckled standing up to leave.

"Sit down." I said calmly.

"I'll pass my nigga." She headed to the door.

"Sit the fuck down Sky!" My voice cracked. At that moment I didn't realize I was crying until a tear hit my chest.

Despite my hard exterior, Sky is my sister. We've grown so close and to think of her walking away from our sisterhood kills me. Her loyalty and honesty made me respect her. I trusted her and we had a unbreakable bond. For that, I owe it to her to be honest.

"Please?" I asked her.

She took her hand off the door knob and walked back to the couch to sit down. I took a deep breath before I began.

"I never meant for any of this shit to happen. None of it. I never asked for this lifestyle but it somehow found me."

Sky sat silently as I went on for twenty minutes, telling her my truth. Throughout it all her face remained the same and I couldn't read her.

"I have over fifty bodies on my hands and I'm not proud of it. Leslie fucked shit up for me but I can't put all the blame on her cause I played a big part in the shit that happened." I sniffled, dabbing my face with tissue.

Silence filled the air as I sat on pins and needles wanting her to say something, anything. When she came over and hugged me I broke down.

"Why didn't you tell me mama?" She patted and rubbed my back. I layed my head on her shoulder, letting it all out.

After regaining my composure I wiped my eyes and spoke."Besides having trust issues I was scared you wouldn't accept me. I've done some fucked up shit and I don't blame you if you look at me a certain way." I said.

"Look at me, you know me. I never gave you a reason to doubt me. Finding all that shit had me livid because it was a surprise to me and you know a bitch don't like surprises." We both chuckled.

"Seriously though, finding that shìt was a smack in the face sis; as if our whole friendship was a lie and it hurt me. I didn't know what your motives were and I was just tryna protect mine. I'an judging you cause I know your heart. Just never lie to me or keep secrets like this again."