Only Love Can Hurt Like This

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⚠️ Trigger Warning - Traumatic Birth and mentions of heavy blood loss⚠️

Chris Pov

I try talking to Ava but her eyes fall shut, panic sets in as I look towards the now three doctors working on my Fiancée. The blood is everywhere.

"What's happening?!" I ask one of the nurses who's making sure Ava doesn't choke on her own sick.

"She's hemorrhaging, she's lost a lot of blood that's why she's passed out"

I stand watching as the doctors try to save Ava's life.

A couple of minutes had passed and she still wasn't awake, the doctors managed to stop the bleeding and were stitching her up.

I'm filled with happiness and worry, two emotions i've never felt together before.

A couple of hours had passed and Ava was still asleep, she had been through such an exhausting experience and all the pain medication was sure to make her tired as well.

A nurse comes into the room with some little bottles of formula for the baby, I change her nappy first then put her into a fresh baby pink sleepsuit followed by a little bottle of milk.

I sit next to Ava on the bed, being careful not to hurt her. I gently rock the baby as i'm feeding, softly singing to her. Ava places her head on my shoulder and I look at her now open but still tired eyes.

"Hi baby, how you feeling?"

"Like i've been hit by a bus" Ava tried to laugh but holds her tummy in pain remembering that she's just had a major surgery.

I place the baby on Ava's bare chest for some skin to skin time and I place my arm around her neck.

Shortly after the baby is placed on Ava, I feel her head become heavy on my shoulder and I realise she's fallen asleep, I leave the baby where she is as I try and rack my brains to find a name for her.

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Ava's pov

A few days had passed and we were ready to he discharged from the hospital, I was still extremely sore but able to walk around slowly. I was so thankful that Chris was allowed to stay with us - he's been amazing so far especially running off of hardly any sleep.

Chris helps me up and into the shower, he was only allowed to sponge me down with water and fragrance free soap due to the plaster covering my open wound, any sort of fragrance soap could cause an infection. I was just so glad to be getting washed, the hospital was so hot and I was starting to feel icky.

After the shower Chris helps me into some comfy joggers and a jumper as the nurse comes and takes my blood one final time and removes the drip from my hand. My hands and feet swell up from the removal and thankfully Chris had brought my Crocs to the hospital.

We get our discharge papers and get baby girl into her car seat.

"Ellis..."

"Hm?" I question

"What about Ellis Evans?" Chris beams a teethy smile at her.

"I love it, i love you" I pull his face down to mine and place my lips on his.

I secure Ellis into her car seat checking and checking again.

How could we have made such a beautiful little girl?

She had Dark Brown hair like Chris and my little button nose. Her feature were still to be determined in the next couple of months especially her eye colour.

Chris places his hand on the small of my back as he picks up the car seat whilst carrying the baby bag on his back.

"Are you ok to wheel the suitcase? Actually no, i'll take it". He takes the suitcase from beside me as we head towards the door.

"Let's go home Ellis and meet your big brother Dodge, he's gonna love you. Here's to the start of the rest of our lives".

Chris beams at me as we leave the room, one things for sure. I won't be doing that again anytime soon.