Leave Mary Jane Alone

Chapter Twenty Three

I finally fell asleep and because of last nights problems I wasn't able to set my alarm or be prepared to wake up and catch the bus. That day it was raining which just annoyed me. But at the same time I felt comforted knowing that the rain was in agreement with me. So I was walking in the rain because my mother left early for work when I needed her because she does inconvenient stuff like that. And to make matters worse, I looked like a rat with pink hair.

The thoughts began to weigh on me then. Oliver would never be with a girl like me. My mom was insane. My dad was dead. Nobody likes me. It's raining. Just facts. They hit me hard too. Like a brick shattering a window hard. I cried in the rain as I walked not caring where I was going or how hideous this scene looked because I know it looked bad. First it was just short spastic breaths and huffs but then it got bigger until I was wailing into the sky. Cursing everything. Was this all because of Oliver? I didn't know. Was it because I realized that Oliver was right about me that night at the ice cream place when I met Danny. I had issues and I never did anything for myself. I couldn't think about Danny right then though so I didn't.

Suddenly I decided that I didn't have to depend on anyone. And I wouldn't depend on anyone. And I wouldn't trust Oliver. I walked or rather I dragged myself into school with nothing but irritation and aggravation reeking from me. I didn't care. Anyone who looked at me could realize that in a matter of seconds.

When I stepped foot in the classroom the teacher stared at me. His mouth opened. Then closed. Then opened again then he started his lesson and ignored my tardiness. History was an easy subject either way. I listened. I took notes and I didn't even know what exactly I was writing. He had a student pass out a worksheet and of course when I was supposed to get mine the girl passing it out dropped it in the floor. I rolled my eyes and leaned down to pick it up. I began to work when the girl passed back by my table and bumped it causing me to screw up my letters. Now if hear things would have been accidents I wouldn't have been annoyed. But they were done on purpose and she was giggling the entire time.

I had to choose if I wanted to say something or not. I didn't feel like it. It wasn't worth it. And I was used to shit like this anyway. I just continued my work and when class was over I turned it in. I went to my other classes and I put in my earphones so I wouldn't have to deal with anyone. Oliver wasn't at school and I avoided Jackson. Mercedes saw me and laughed and I didn't even ask why. Did it matter?

I went home and I dealt with my mom and I slept.

That was my schedule for two weeks. Then my mom decided to take me out for ice cream one night and of course it was at the place Danny worked. He was our waiter. We were seated and I ordered wrote down my order. Choosing not to talk in front of my mom was easy. She didn't need to know if I could talk or not because it was in the early stages. What if it was temporary? So, no I didn't tell her.

Danny was our waiter though which made me happy. I was surprised to see him since I was so sure he'd lose his job after the ice cream catastrophe but here he was.

"Hi guys I'm your waiter Danny and I'll be serving you both all night." He said in that usual happy tone like butter wouldn't melt. My mom watched him look at me with curiosity.

"MJ we miss you at the Brown household! My Dad thinks I scared you away. It was him though wasn't it?" He asked like we were in on a little secret. I stomped on his foot just a little and he winced. I didn't need my mother to know about that. I smiled and shook my head. It was hard not to talk to him when he made me want to talk.

My mom cleared her throat, she looked a tad bit pissed, and Danny looked at her like she'd just appeared. "Yes ma'am are you and your sister ready to order?" He smiles innocently. He knew that was winning her over. She smiled tightly after that and ordered French fries.