Sweet Escape (COMPLETE)

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“I wonder if he's asleep...” Sabi ko sa sarili it's 3 am in the morning at tapos na Ang shift ko at babalik muli bukas sa 11. I was darn tired mabuti na lamang ay malapit lang ang condo sa hospital kong saan ako nakabase.

Before I could open the door with my keys it opened it self. Iniluwal nito si Claud, medyo nagulat naman ako dahil gising pa ito sa ganitong oras. Hindi ko magawang makapagsalita dahil hinila kaagad ako nito. Napasinghap ako ng hinila ako nito upang yakapin, his scent was calming and he smells good.

Somehow the tiredness in my body slowly register. I closed my eyes as leaning to his hard chest. His presence somehow comforts me. Tumingala ako rito kung saan nadatnan ko itong nakatingin sa akin. No hence of emotion was shown to his handsome face.

I'm thinking, how can I like this guy if this guy alone don't have that sense of emotion to reciprocate mine? How can I like him more? This issue alone turns me off but he's Claud, anything he does makes me flabbergasted.

“Why are you still awake? You should've rest.” Mahinang bulong ko rito nakatingin parin sa asul nitong mata. It was drowning me in the same abyss I was drowning with. I shivered as his hand caught my cheek and slightly caress it. He was looking at my face like memorizing it. This somehow warms me but still awkward. I don't know how to react to it.

Napalunok ko dahil sa kakaibang nararamdaman hindi ko alam kong anong gagawin sa naging aksyon nito. Nakatingin lamang ako sa mga mata nito. I caught him staring at my lips then back to my eyes. That was fast but I still manage to caught it.

“Are you tired?” He asked making me nodded. Absent mindedly. He sighed and carried me on his arms on bridal style. Worried filled me knowing he been shot and now his carrying me! I grasped as he tighten the grip on my body.

“Put me down! You wound might cut open!” Nag-papanick na sabi ko ngunit hindi ako nito pinakinggan. Inilapag ako nito pa-upo sa sofa. Hindi ko alam kong anong gagawin nito ngunit nagulat na lamang ako ng lumuhod ito at sinimulang tanggalin ang sapatos kong suot.

Napakurap ako sa ginagawa nito. I bit my lower lip as my heart warms. My eyes watered a little. I was so damn tired and he was undoing my shoes for me. I want to cry for some reason. This touched me. How can he so considerate in such cold expressionless handsome face?

“Y-You don't have to.” A lump on my throat made me hard to utter more. It was new for me. I want to cry hard. Sa pagod ko ngayon lang may nakakita. He seen my tired side. I was hiding it earlier for him not to worry. I always does that even back in my home, I always acted like I wasn't tired alone even I was closed in breaking down.

“Let me take care you.” Malamig na sabi nito, I bit my lip as looking at him gently undoing my socks. He was doing that gently as if I was a porcelain glass that would break in any second.  A tear escape from my eyes. I immediately wipe it, for him not to see me like this.

No one has ever taken care of me. I want to cry hard and hugged him for doing this small thing. Narinig siguro nito ang paghikbi ko na siyang hindi ko na napigilan kaya ito napatingin sa akin. I saw his eyes panicked so is his body language.

Lumamlam ang paningin nito sa akin halatang nag-aalala.

“Baby... Why are you crying? Did I do sometimes wrong? Was it because I didn't rest and you're mad?” He asked, he's so innocent for acknowledging the great thing he did just now. People called it bare minimum but even bare minimum warms your heart you can't deny it. He's caring. Thoughtful. Patient and darn handsomely sexy! And he calls me baby! How lucky I can get if I make this man mine?

I certainly know I can't have him. His country needs him, that country needs someone like him. A persona who's ruthless but kind. A king, someone you can respect with. But a little stubborn.

“I'm sorry baby... I just wanted to wait for you, I can't sleep without you near me. That's why I waited. I'm—” I cut him off.

“Can I kiss you, please?” I plead. Oh my god. Why is he saying sorry? He didn't do anything wrong. He's sorry thinking I was mad at him because I told him to rest yet he didn't because he wanted to wait for me. And he waited and undo my shoes for me knowing I was tried and he was hurt but still done that.

God... why I can't have him? He's too good, I know that but I can earn him for me to be better match for him.

“You don't have to beg baby.” He said and dipped his head to kiss. I closed my eyes as that soft lips touched mine finally after those years of thinking him of him. And how's like to be kissed again by him. It was blissful. The feeling I want to have again but I will be called selfish for wanting more.

My heart was beating fast as the kiss lasts for a minute then a small smile appeared to his lips. I saw his eyes saying something I can't figure out. It was too much of emotion going on there. Too abstract for me read.

My eyes flutters as we both catched our breaths after the kiss. He rested his forehead into mine. He was cupping my face and his thumbs was caressing my cheeks softly making smile.

“I missed you.” Sa wakas na amin ko, I can't deny it anymore. Should I risk it? Hindi ko alam kong ano nang gagawin ko. Having this sweet man with me is such a guilty pleasure. Ate Klareen asked me to take care of his brother not to kiss him!

Am I bad for wanting my brother's wife brother? Am I mad?

“Fuck! I missed you more, iyulov'. So damn much.” He whispered fanning his breath to my fave. His minty breath tickles me.

I know this would end bad. I knew from the very start since I kissed him back at the palace. He is a king. I am nothing but than a nurse. But having him here might be something. If nothing happens I will make one to happen.

It was a bad move for him to be with me. I'll have my ways to him until he can't wash me off his system. Gagawin ko ang lahat hanggang wala na siyang maisip kundi ako lang, wala na siyang hanapin pa kundi ako. Hanggang pagbalik niya sa Russia. Until then, he would be safe but not safe with his thoughts with me. A memory he would keep, until then I will make it last as if I'll be gone. Kung hindi ito gumagalaw upang maging sakanya ako kung sa ganon ako ang gagawa. Baliwin ko siya, maling-mali ang desisyon nitong halikan ako ulit.

That is a seal, a seal of his peace of mind. Then he will went insane of having the dosage of me.

If he can't make me his, then I will be his. Until he submit to me, as he admit that I'm his sweet escape.

A/N: Last a/n about typos. I'm sorry for the typos and grammatical errors. This is not edited. Bare hardly.