SOY II: (The Sequel) To You, Who Becomes One With The Stars

SOY II: To You, Who Becomes one with the stars

To You, Who becomes one with the stars.

Carl Kairi Sebian, the name I will never forget.

He still lingers on my memories, my mind, and my heart.
He is that someone who started as a stranger. Become the most important person in my life, Someone who is closest to my heart and has now become my past.

Because I lost him, in summer.

If I could have asked for one thing, that would be.........

If summer may come, I hope to see you smiling at me again.
Waving your hand as a gesture of welcoming me back to where it all started.

But it won't happen.
You're now one of the stars up in the dark skies, guiding everyone you love.

Years have passed but it still breaks my heart. Knowing that the person I spend most of my summer is now just a part of my memory.

Every time summer comes,

I try to stop my tears from falling to not to worry about my family and act as if I already moved on but one time, my mom saw me crying silently.

I immediately wiped my tears away but it started to fall down again because of what she told me.

" Tears are meant to fall, whether it is tears of Joy, or tears of sorrow.
Don't fool yourself by hiding or denying it.
Cry if your tears want to fall. That's the only way you can ease the pain for a little "
" But don't cry for too long honey, because I know he doesn't want to see you like that "

My mother's words made me cry a lot that day.
And that's the reason why every time I remind him myself, I miss him more than I did yesterday.

I'm not ready to face him yet, because I know that I'll just cry if I meet him and he'll get sad because I'm crying. He'll be mad at himself for making me cry.
I want to make myself presentable once I make up my mind on meeting him.
I want to show him that I'm all good now and I'll be fine..........

But not now.
I still need time.

They say, moving on is not like you'll forget about them.
It's about accepting the fact that,
that person will be no longer part of your life.

I know that it's not like I will forget about Kairi but accepting it is just hard for me.

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To You, who becomes one with the stars.

It's taking me too long to meet you, I know that.
But please be patient for now as I am doing my best to cope up with the pain.

To You, Who becomes one with the stars.

I'm thankful because the memories I had when I was a child are with you.
Thank you for spending your time just to please me.
Thank you for making my childhood memorable and spending it with me.
I thank you for letting me feel what real love is. Every single word you said, I'm keeping it safe with me.

To You, who becomes one with the stars.

The present without you is dark.