The Girl With X-Ray Eyes

Chapter 4

I'd been going round to Noel's house about twice a week, when Noel wasn't in the studio or doing other commitments.  I loved going over to his house, it was so spacious and I liked the privacy.
I would walk around, finding little corridors that led to other rooms. One day I stumbled upon this room. It was filled with instruments and equipment everywhere. I stepped in a bit and saw a bunch of records and awards hanging on the walls. I stared at the many gold plaques. I didn't realize how big of a star Noel had been. I continued looking and saw pictures and magazine covers of Noel and his band. I recognized one of the men next to Noel in most of the pictures. He was the singer, Liam. As I read through a bit I came to his name again and then realized that he had the same last name as Noel, Gallagher. There were sow many pictures of just them together, I wondered why I had never heard or seen him before.

I decided to leave and go back into where I was working. I saw Noel sitting on the couch and sat down to talk with him.

"Noel, who is Liam?" I asked.

As soon as those words left my mouth Noel went into a fit of rage. He slammed his phone down on the couch and stood up yelling.

"You fucking press cunts don't care about anybody or our feelings. All you want is the scoop or the latest story, whatever to get your fucking money. When are you gonna reunite with Liam? Have you spoken to Liam? Blah Blah Blah. . Well you know what? you're not getting a fucking peep outta me, so you can fuck off out of here!"

Noel stormed out of the room and left Jessica sitting on the couch crying. A few moments later Sara came home and saw Jessica sobbing.

"Oh my god Jessica, whats wrong honey?" Sara said trying to comfort me.

" I- I dont - know . . I was just asking Noel about someone named Liam and he started yelling at me." I said wiping my tears and trying to calm down.

Sara sighed, "I would've thought after all these years that name wouldn't affect him this much still."

It all happened so quickly I still hadn't a clue what Noel got so mad for. "I was just asking him cause I saw pictures in the other room," I said wiping my few remaining tears.

"I'm sorry he yelled at you like that. You didn't know about it. I will talk to Noel about it, you just go home and get some rest alright?" Sara said helping me get myself together.

I thanked Sara and grabbed my things. All I could think about on the way home was what Noel said to me. Did he really think that nobody cares for him? I know im just a pr assistant but I wanted to make him feel good and confident with all these things, I'm just trying to help. I decided to try not to let it bother me. As I got home and sat on my bed, the scene of Noel getting so angry at the mention of Liam's name replayed in my head. I needed to know more. I opened my laptop and decided to do a little research. When I typed in Liam and Noels name about a thousand articles popped up about them fighting. I clicked on a few and read what happened between them. As I kept reading, I started to feel sorry for Noel, the way Liam acted, him not showing up for gigs and the things he said to Noel. I finally understood why he reacted to the name like that.

When I woke up the next morning, I was a bit apprehensive about going over to Noel's house. I wasn't sure if he was still going to be mad at me but I decided to go and apologize to him. "I hope Sara had a good talk with him", I thought to myself as I walked up to his door. Sara answered with a shocked look on her face but let me in.
I walked into the living room where Noel was standing behind the couch rubbing his arm nervously. Sara gave me a touch and said she'd be in the other room and left me and Noel standing there. Noel walked a little bit closer to me but didn't say anything. He looked at me like he was about to say something but nothing came out. For the first time I saw his bright blue eyes. They had a tinge of sadness to them even with the grumpy expression on his face.

"I'm sorry." We both said to each other.

"No, me first." Noel said, "I shouldn't have gotten so angry and said those words to you. I overreacted and wasn't thinking clearly. I just am so sick and tired of being asked about him. Nobody focuses on what I'm doing, they all want something I'm not willing and able to do."

I had realized that Noel had been presenting himself as this guarded, grumpy man because he still had insecurities. It made him more human and showed me that he had emotions.

"Thank you. And I'm sorry for bringing it up, I won't do it again. I just didn't know who he was and I saw the pictures in the other room." I said to Noel.

"Its alright, that was my past and it's still apart of me. I just have to get used to it still coming up. I just sometimes wish people could see the love in what I'm doing now." Noel said still looking dejected.

I walked up to Noel and gave him a hug. I think he was a bit surprised as he didn't hug back at first but after a moment he wrapped his arms around me. It actually felt really nice and I didn't want to let go. I did eventually step back and looked back up at Noel. He seemed to be in brighter spirits now.

"Well I think I'm gonna head back home."

"Ah alright. See you tomorrow?" Noel asked me as I stood by the door.

"Yeah" I nodded back.

Noel gave me a small smile as I stepped outside. I think that was the first time I had seen him smile ever.