𝐁𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭

𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐤𝐞𝐧𝐝

𝑨𝒏𝒅 𝑰'𝒎 𝒂𝒍𝒘𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒔𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒊𝒕 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒂 𝒑𝒓𝒂𝒚𝒆𝒓
𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒕𝒐𝒖𝒄𝒉 𝒎𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆
𝒚𝒐𝒖'𝒍𝒍 𝒂𝒍𝒘𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒃𝒆 𝒎𝒚 𝒓𝒊𝒕𝒖𝒂𝒍

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" You look so beautiful in morning light " he said as the sun came between the curtains reflecting on my face..

" Good morning sweet Kai.. " I smiled at him and then he kissed me..

" Thank you for having me last night, for sharing your bed with me.. " he looked so appreciated, that I even let him sleep beside me, just sleeping!

" Actually you're a quiet sleeper, you slept on the same side the whole night actually " I laughed

" I didn't want to give my girlfriend insomnia " he smiled at me widly

" So I'm your girlfriend then? " I grinned

" If you will have me.. " he kissed my hand

" Of course I'll have you Kai.. " I kissed him

" ich liebe dich " he kissed me back

" Don't love me in German please.. " I teased him

" Du magst meine Sprache nicht? " He teased me too

" Kaaaai!! " I shouted

" Sorry " he laughed as I hugged him and he flipped over me.. his face was on my face, kissing me passionately

I can say I got over Frenkie now, but If I got over him why do I mention him now? A part of me was still locked, it was Frenkie's only..

I never saw his face for a year now, everything was okay cause I just never saw him! What if I did? What if my move on was false! Cause I didn't test it in a real situation..

I was only working with the English teams, I never went viral or worldwide.. I didn't want to actually, I went to London to escape my old life..

World cup is actually so soon, I haven't seen the groups yet, I hope for Germany to never meet Netherlands, I couldn't bare to see Frenkie's face, and I couldn't leave Kai alone in a foreign country with no support, if that man has done one thing it would be supporting me!

I waited for the draw to be known, Germany was in Group B, and guess what, it was with Netherlands along with Spain and Ecuador..

I was so nervous and Kai knew it, but he wasn't afraid or something, he was so confident..

" You're worrying about the group, Am I right? " He asked

" I can't see him Kai.. " I replied

" You won't, It's just one match that we will be playing it with them.. " he tried to comfort me

" I know.. " I said

" I can't force you to come, if you didn't want to.. " I can't believe he is such a caring man

" Of course I'll come! I won't let him break me, it's been over for a long time, I have a real man now.. " I said

" Is that supposed to be me? " He smiled

" You're the best man in the world " I kissed him

" I may not be your first date, kiss or love, but I want be your last everything " he said and I couldn't stop smiling at him

So we spent the weekend as best lovers, we didn't know what is waiting for us then, we didn't know that we won't last that much..

When I think about what happened, it feel like it was all a dream, finding one love just to lose it and find another just to lose it again for the first..

My whole life is a big misleading, I only wanted to feel safe in arms of a man who really loves me, who will do anything just to make me happy..

I wasn't ready to travel with Kai to Qatar, I wanted to stay home, but I guess I don't have a home anymore, the man I love now is my home, I will be wherever he is, and so we went to Qatar, ready for the group stage..

The first match was between Spain and Netherlands, I didn't even want to watch it on TV, but Kai was watching, to know his opponents, to study them carefully..

And somehow I took a galnce at the match, and my whole life fell apart when I saw his face in that orange T-shirt..

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𝐓𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐮𝐞𝐝