Starlight

puzzle

You made me feel things as if they were in a puzzle.
I had to find the pieces that belonged together
just so I could finally feel
that everything would fit perfectly.
The more I try to fit the pieces,
the more I struggled with the puzzle.
And I realized that all along,
I should never have thought of fitting things perfectly
'cause nothing good would come out of it if I do.
I should've let the pieces go
in order for me to know
that the puzzle wasn't about what I felt,
but the puzzle was us.
We were two different things from different puzzles,
yet I wanted us to fit so well
because I wanted to pick up your broken pieces
even though you've always been like that-
who wouldn't want to be picked up nor fixed.
But I believed that we were a puzzle
so I did what I had to.
I picked up the pieces,
especially yours.
Deep down,
I was filled with broken pieces too.
I wanted to get away from the pieces that shattered me,
so I held on to you because I found something beautiful in you.
You made me feel whole,
despite the fact that you can never fully complete the pieces within me.
But with your presence,
I realized that the pieces started making sense.
There was a puzzle that was formed
and it was because of you.
And now,
I badly want to fix the pieces that have been broken between us.
Because I used to believe
that we were a puzzle not meant to fit in with the world and its horrendous standards,
yet we were a puzzle in a world that only the two of us can understand each other.