Starlight

teenage hell

Healing a heart that has always been used to damage is probably one of the hardest things anyone could ever deal with. It's like you find ways to escape from the pain, but all you could remember was the pain you were antagonizing over. It'll be hard to recover from the pain of losing something, someone whom you really valued but never did value you. As a teenager, feelings as fragile and sensitive as these are perfectly normal, valid and acceptable. You'll never be a teenager ever again and this pain right now that you're dealing with, you'll get over it with as time passes by. Now may seem like there's no way out and it's just so hard to understand why things happened the way they did and why people would never understand why you're hurting like this. To some, this might be their first heartbreak. For others, this might be their second, third, fourth or whichever way their hearts got broken and damaged by the people they considered special in their lives. Forgiveness is key to let the pain go, but it's not as easy as it sounds like. Sometimes, forgetting and forgiving are just so hard to do. You'll desensitize the feelings you had so that you could finally breathe and let this pain heal. However, you'll have to go through cycles and phases of becoming anti fragile so that you can protect your heart from those who wish to damage it and so you can attain the peace you're yearning for. Moreover, things will come to an end and there's nothing you can do about it. You cannot control how people feel about you, what they think of you and how they see you. But you can control how you respond to the damage you've dealt with. You can either choose to accept or neglect your own feelings for your sanity. Trust me, it's one of a teenage hell to get out of this and finally reach the peak of your healing.